I really need people to understand monster hunter is traumatic to me at this point, it’s a trigger, due to how people show such disregard to me mixed with how overly sadistic the game is and how it is designed in a way that manipulated people with OCD.

When I play this game, I have constant nightmares. I lose lots of sleep and blood, then when I get triggered and talk about it and how manipulative and painful it is, people who seem otherwise good like to sea lion me.

Currently the only people I’ve encountered more toxic than western Monster Hunter fans are hate group members. Neo Nazis, etc. League of Legends feels downright friendly by comparison.

And people always want to respond to just talk down to me when again, I do no hit/damage fights in MHW. People tell me to just stop and how it’s all my fault. I guess when people talk to others addicted to drugs they’re like “oh easy just stop. It’s your fault for using” too.

When people talk about gambling in games that take advantage of people in games they seem to just accept. When I talk about a game manipulating people with things like imposter syndrome and perfectionism focused OCD they suddenly act like chuds.

I don’t even know what to do when people harass me with concern trolling constantly over monster hunter, and I’m afraid to even directly say it because it’s viewers, friends, who just got some reason do this only with this specific game.

Like fuck I had been fighting Alatreon so much I was considering streaming MHW. Now I’m reminded viewers would just have me breaking down in tears again while live.

Also it’s so weird how when I talk about this stuff people do start trying to argue against that I’m in pain or being harassed, Hell even this thread I might get some “not all ocd” remarks when I literally never said “all people with ocd.” It’s so fucking disturbing.