Generally I have High Functioning Depression. This means that I seem pretty ok to most people. I manage a house, mortgage, day to day job & routines. I can smile & laugh & seemingly cope with everything. But HFD means that you are just a great actor. You work harder to prove 1/n
That you are a worthy human, you smile more & give more to ensure that people don’t leave you when the going gets tough. Underneath the facade of “normal” is a frantic thought process of self derision. “I’m broken”, “I’m a burden”, “why am I so tired?”, “why can’t I do MORE?” 2/n
You push yourself further & harder until one day something gives (often physically) and you have to stop. Then the fear comes crashing in, roaring into the void left by a lack of purpose. You feel useless, pointless, worthless. No prior achievements matter, nothing helps 3/n
There seems little point in trying because you’ve been here before & will almost certainly find yourself here again. The exhaustion is suffocating. The guilt is choking. All you can do is wait for energy to return & start the cycle over again. #MentalHealthMatters #depression
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