so a while back, i couldn’t breathe properly + having chest pains & at one point, i stopped breathing while sleeping & i woke up (several times) gasping for air (it felt like i was talking my last intake of air and starting panicking ...

went to urgent care ... “you’re stress about the pandemic...ik it’s hard but you need to relax yourself”... ok; starting changing my life habits + starting feeling so much better

same thing happened again a few days before school actually started and i had to go to the ER (i went back home) and i told them doctor/nurses what was happening / what urgent care told me... first thing they did was that they tested me for covid

waited for an hour & the doctor took me to the back and my heart was pounding so quick. 1st instinct: “why is he taking me to the back” 2nd instinct: “you got covid” 3rd instinct: “it’s probably anxiety/stress”
-BOOM- it was the third instinct.

he told me my results came back negative & told me that “it’s stress/anxiety” and that i need to “be very careful and to follow safety guidelines”. talked about how this could take a huge toll with what’s happening w/ me rn (stress)

i’ve been stress before and i knew that it will fuck up your mental health but i never knew that one’s physical health and actual health could be affected (silly daniel) and ever since then, the fear i have stored in the back of my brain sometimes comes out & i start panicking

losing control of my breathing...start coughing...shaking... i truly hate that. I don’t know about ya but for me, I get tested once every 2-3 weeks & thank god that my test results come back negative

i be doing so good & BOOM- i’m back at square one. like i truly be hiding how i’m ACTUALLY feeling because i tend to keep things to myself (toxic habit, ik) but this shit be scary sometimes

i know there are people who’s health are on the line during this pandemic & that’s why i stay on top of people in wearing their masks/social distance

sorry about this thread lol. i’m currently going through the whole “stress/anxiety” and i have to wake up to go to work/school in less than 3 hours...decided to vent on twitter lol fb