All hope to Venus returning safely. What I wanna do is take this time to mention a few things in hopes Venus somehow see's this sometime. Please read it ALL and don't skim as what I am about to say is mixed and can totally be seen the wrong way.

We have had long disputes, ones I am not proud of either. I will admit that I was part of the problem, tho not always but partial. I don't think we ever settled our differences and I kinda left her on "read" last we had a discussion. Today, I wanna make a few things clear.

I was wrong to think that we would all see and comprehend everything the same. Through current issues in both the world as a whole and my own, I see that this concept is very clear to me. The most recent "mocking" tweet, that's what I will focus on right now.

I too have a "shrine" for a fictional character. It's a small horror movie related one. Had that been mocked, I probably would throw it over my shoulder and -

- mock them back for laughs. That's just me. Venus on the other hand is clearly not like that, and I now understand that. I do think the mocking was uncalled for from the original user.

I also have celebrated an anime characters birthday. Even more, I celebrated it on my own birthday and put her name on the cake for our family to eat.

The original user who posted the "mocking meme" should have realized that other SAO fans, primarily in Japan from my understanding, invested MORE than Venus and they are very proud of it. And Venus should be too.

A "shrine" for one thing is a sign of dedication. A sign that, no matter what negativity goes against you, you will forever love that one particular thing. Investing in Asuna merch is no worse nor better than investing hundreds of dollars into vinyl albums or video games even.

I know Venus, you and I have never settled our differences and always got into toxic arguments. I would take full blame over the entire thing, every last bit of it, as long as we can end our constant battles.

I'm sorry Venus, I had no idea how much of an impact what I did actually had on you. As I said, I will take full blame over all of it. I'm sorry, this is the worst of times to say all of this. But considering someone else was doing something that I admit to have done the same...

I can't take another step and look at myself as a hero among the gods. I can't have this fake image of who I am when I am not what I think I was and am. My online appearance shows as the brave criticizing shield, when in reality, I break down in tears at the slightest criticism.

I've been a hypocrite and a liar all along without truly realizing what image I started making of myself. I'm sorry I never noticed the truth, I'm sorry, Venus, for never seeing myself in your position.

Take care.

Sincerely,
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