I& #39;m finally getting into the start of the audiobook and I& #39;m already sobbing. I& #39;ve barely made it past the preface & I& #39;m already gone https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">
I just feel for Mariah so much and I just know we& #39;re about to get into SO MUCH, idk how I& #39;m gonna take it all in!
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I& #39;m gonna post all of my reactions to this thread so SPOILERS AHEAD https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="‼️" title="Doppeltes Ausrufezeichen" aria-label="Emoji: Doppeltes Ausrufezeichen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="‼️" title="Doppeltes Ausrufezeichen" aria-label="Emoji: Doppeltes Ausrufezeichen">
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I cannot believe the amount of violence that took place in her house as a baby. It& #39;s insane how no one had any regard for each other & definitely not for Mariah. Morgan is the worst https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😤" title="Triumphierendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Triumphierendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😤" title="Triumphierendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Triumphierendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😤" title="Triumphierendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Triumphierendes Gesicht"> clearly he has issues that have never been resolved https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😒" title="Unerfreutes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Unerfreutes Gesicht"> #TheMeaningOfMariahCarey https://abs.twimg.com/hashflags... draggable="false" alt="">

I hope we get to hear more about her Nana Reece, she sounds like a warm and beautiful person, who protected Mariah when she was around https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Rotes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Rotes Herz">
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So Alison and Morgan had the nerve to hate each other but hate Mariah even more?? Whew the way I can& #39;t stand these two https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😤" title="Triumphierendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Triumphierendes Gesicht">. I actually understand their own personal trauma but what I won& #39;t accept is their inflicting pain on Mariah & everyone else https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😒" title="Unerfreutes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Unerfreutes Gesicht"> #TheMeaningOfMariahCarey https://abs.twimg.com/hashflags... draggable="false" alt="">

There& #39;s so many tragic moments and I& #39;m only a few chapters through. Even with that, Mariah still manages to add humor, I love that about her https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😄" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit geöffnetem Mund und lächelnden Augen" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit geöffnetem Mund und lächelnden Augen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😄" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit geöffnetem Mund und lächelnden Augen" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit geöffnetem Mund und lächelnden Augen"> her referring to her & #39;decent bangs& #39; as a & #39;special Christmas miracle& #39; is sending me https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Gesicht mit Freudentränen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit Freudentränen">
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Omgggggg this acapella intro of Sunflowers for Alfred Ray https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="📢" title="Lautsprecheranlage" aria-label="Emoji: Lautsprecheranlage">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="📢" title="Lautsprecheranlage" aria-label="Emoji: Lautsprecheranlage">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="📢" title="Lautsprecheranlage" aria-label="Emoji: Lautsprecheranlage">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="📢" title="Lautsprecheranlage" aria-label="Emoji: Lautsprecheranlage">
Mariah sounds so beautiful and genuine. Omg I just know I& #39;m gonna be a MESS in this chapter https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">
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Mariah describing her dad& #39;s special meal he prepared in perfect detaail literally makes me wanna read fictional books written by Mariah! The intricate details, the inflections, the energy! She IS A WRITER. Plus her grandma ruining the meal w/parmesean is hilarious https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Gesicht mit Freudentränen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit Freudentränen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Gesicht mit Freudentränen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit Freudentränen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Gesicht mit Freudentränen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit Freudentränen">
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Aww Mariah riding in the now famous porache with her dad singing songs is sooo cute https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Rotes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Rotes Herz">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Rotes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Rotes Herz">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Rotes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Rotes Herz"> and him bringing her books, especially one about a blind Black boy & tying that with her love & respect for Stevie Wonder https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="📢" title="Lautsprecheranlage" aria-label="Emoji: Lautsprecheranlage"> I love everything about this part ! My worlds https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Rotes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Rotes Herz">
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Omgggg these lyrics and musical moments being interwoven into the chapters are EVERYTHING. Mariah is such a genius! And omg the lyrics to Bye Bye & Sunflowers for Alfred Ray are so much more clearer now https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">
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Idk if the book is gonna get into this but I& #39;m SO curious about Mariahs relationship w/her father AFTER fame. She gave us the foundation of it growing up & his strictness/perfectionist ways even after fame BUT why did they seemingly continue to grow apart untill yrs later? #TMOMC https://abs.twimg.com/hashflags... draggable="false" alt="">

I can only assume it was as she said, about them having fundamental differences in what he thought was an acceptable career & wanting her to have a stable job after growing up in chaos? Maybe she felt like he didnt believe in her or care about her dreams? It& #39;s all just sad #TMOMC https://abs.twimg.com/hashflags... draggable="false" alt="">