Ladies, Why!!!!
As i push back the hands of time via my memories, 2014 is the year, this schoolgirl stops me at Railways and says to me, "Hi, Nakujua, you're from Kiserian."

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I was surprised by her approach, but i answered "Yes, I'm from Kiserian" Since we were both in School uniform, we had a little talk na tukajuana majina. She was heading to Murang'a (Gitura) and i was heading to Embu.

I walked her to where she was boarding a commute to her desired destination, and we exchanged contacts, just wrote them down since we both had no phones..

I just acted normal and didn't let her get over my head, i forgot about her after arriving in Embu, but i kept the contacts. Untill the schools were closed for the holidays.

On the 2nd day on arriving home for the holidays, she texted me with a new contact (Not the one she had gave me earlier) she reminded me who she is and where we met. Yeap!! We commenced conversing, zile texts za 400 @30 zilikuwa zinaisha daily..

We met and had a walk, we both had the desires to explore and know each other better, and we started being friends as time passed by.

She was in form 3, and i was in form 4, so we created a bond in the holiday, she started paying me visits even when in mothers presence, she didn't mind, and they even became friends with my mom.

I never had sex with her, even on her visits.. We used to watch movies and cook lunch and I'll later walk her to her residence. We we're close friends.

On the 'Back to school' day, she gave me a kiss without me expecting it, well, it was amazing I'd say.. Though i was on the final months in high school, but it kept on running in my mind, for the kiss was a deep one.

After i did my CSE, this is where the main story began.. , she had been sent home for fighting with a fellow girl. I found her waiting for me at my doorstep. She ran to me and hugged me, i felt weird, because i was still on school uniform.

I later realised that the girl had commenced liking me, got in the house since i had a spare key with me.. We cooked lunch and since i had picked some movies in town, we watched 'em...

She came to my seat and sat on my lap, and she started caressing, i went out of control, and responded, we made love and we all know the Aftermath...

We both fell in love.... 2 years later, her mom already knows me, both parents from both parties had known each other. The girl had completed her CSE studies.. We were so close in such a way, everyone knew she was mine and i was her's..

At sometimes, she'd miss going back home and she'll call her mom and tell her, "Mom, leo sikam, don't worry, niko kwa akina Jam" and her mom was ok

We both made a decision to stay together and have a family, since i had built my own cube at my parent's compound, she was okay with it. She went at her parents home and collected her clothes and belongings.

One day, she asked for my permission to go at her cousin's birthday party, we had a disagreement at first, but we agreed and i allowed her to go..

She didn't come home the next day, she was away fir 3 days, and her phone was off. I tried to reach her in all means, but it was all in vain. I got anxious, i had some stressful moments, i really loved her, i i was feeling some great void in her absence..

On the 4th day, she called me in the morning & told me that she's ok, her phone spoiled and she had hangovers after drinking too much at the party.. And said she'll be home by the evening. I felt ok, but i was confused, 3 days offline with hangovers!!!!!

Because, she'd have called me with her cousin's phone, but she chose not to, i felt lost, i felt dazzled, but i was at ease when she got home, she looked not ok, but every time I'd question her she's scream at me. So i decided to bury my worries.

Since i had missed her, we did an overnight match. But even in the match, she seemed happy, but Shingo upande.. But i said in my head, "Warefa, bora ako apa na ako uhai"

2 weeks later, on arriving home from hustle, she ran to me and hugged.. She said to me, "Babe, you'll be a dad in 9 months". I was happy that i wept out loud. Being a dad and watching my child grow in my presence and in my love had been my greatest desire.

9 moths, she gave birth to a bouncing baby boy & we named him Daylan, i felt blessed from above for recieving such a gift. And i prayed to God to never let the kid suffer in my presence and made a vow to reach all his needs and his mother's, no matter what it'll take, I'll fight

The kid grew well and healthy, and he'd call no-one else 'Dad' he knew that there's only one dad for him in the world, and that's ME!! My love for him never drifted the love i had for his mom, i did anything to express it, took them out, bought them fancy things..

In 2019 November, our son was on 3 yrs old mark, and i was broke and i couldn't afford to do a birthday party for him, but my wife told me it's ok and not to pressure myself since it isn't necessary for the party

But i still bought my son a present for the birthday.

After my son's birthday, the next day i woke up and went for hustle, i was working in a movie shop.. And on opening, the lights went off at 9:03am, so there was no work until the lights came back at 5:30pm, i had no money, i was broke. Clients weren't available, but i held on

It was getting late, and at around 9pm, i had almost given up. Recalling that at home, my wife and son doesn't have anything to eat, i just left half a bread on the table and it won't last a day.

At 10pm, i had only 10 bob, mbele nyuma.. I'm a father and a husband, a breadwinner with just 10 bob. I gave up and closed the shop to go home.. I started questioning God, "Why give me a a family and i can't even provide for them because you're not providing for me!"

I then remembered a specific verse in the Bible, "If God provides for the birds of the sky, they don't sow nor reap, but they eat everyday" i smiled
And on my smile, a friend of mine appeared and asked me, "Aaah, ushafunga na nlikuwa nadai kubuy flash ya 32gb bana?"

Since i had closed, he chose to give me a deposit of 750 since the flash disk would cost him 1500. I was happy, since i had found something that i can put on the table for my family, i just went at a shop and did my shopping, unga, maziwa, mkate, sukari na tam tam ya mtoi.

I arrived home at around 2235hrs, vile niliingia tu, my wife started complaining and insulting me even before niweke shopping chini, "Ndio umetoka umalaya wako unafika home late ivi? Sasa tumelala njaa"

I wanted to hit him with the shopping, but the paper ikararuka nikitupa, and instead of beating her up, i decided to walk out, i went at my friends place. I was crying like a toddler. Knowing that i went home late because i was hustling to provide for them, only to be insulted.

I switched off my phone and didn't go home for 4 days, my mom would try to seek for my whereabouts, but i called her and told her not to worry I'm ok. My wife approached my mom and told her that "Jay ametufukuza" & i didn't even talk to her

I decided to go home since i had eased up my anger, found my mom doing hus chores in the morning.. Got to my house, found my wife and son, they were already up and having breakfast. In joy my son ran tobme calling "Daddy daddy" i was happy.

We had breakfast together, and later sat down with my wife to solve issues. And in the afternoon we were good. I went out for hustle, and since i haven't tasted the honey for days, i wanted to taste in at night, i got her a necklace as a present on my way back home.

After mechi, she sat down kwa bed looking as if she's lost, she started behaving odd and i had to question her, and she later told me, "kuna kitu imekuwa ikinisumbua for long, and i think this tym nitakushow ukweli, whether it hurts me, I'll have to"

"Daylan sio mtoto wako"

"Unakumbuka the day i went bash ya my cousin, i got drugged nikalala, and i was raped, the next dy nlijipata nikiwa naked, my cousin said hakujua who did it, i was afraid to tell u, ju sikujua utareact aje, ndio ata nlizima simu for 3 days."

My whole world crumbled into pieces, i couldn't hold my tears from cascading, I'd smash everything within me, just got outside with a blanket nikalala nje to avoid burning the house, at dawn, i tried to be okay, but no way, i broke in my house.........

.. and sent my wife and 'so called' son away, calling her all sort of names.. "Malaya wewe, umbwa ya kiserian, wewe ni kupeana unapeana kwa bash ukilewa, shetani wewe" i threw them out and i went back in sobbing.

I stayed in the house for 2 days sleeping and sobbing, because it was so hurting to have been sleeping with someone who had a variety of lies. I was depressed, and I'd hear my mom at my door crying for me..

My mom asked my friend to come and stay with me since i had suicidal thoughts, so his company would help me avoid the thoughts. 3 weeks inside my house, i recovered, and i don't know who told my ex wife that I'm okay, she texted to apologise, aaah, kidonda kikakwaruzwa tena

I started crying like a baby, but my friend was there, and he gave me a tot of gilbeys and weed and I'd start laughing.
I blocked my ex wife's contacts and deleted them.

It hurt me in a bad way such that it made me philophobic, i don't fall in love. My mission became to just have sex with girls and waste them. I really loved the Woman since day 1, but love teaches you some lessons that you'll never repeat again

The mistake i made is, "I loved her too much, and it costs much from it.. I gave her the permission ya kuenda the her arty because i wanted her happy, and I'd didn't go as i expect... I lost 2 precious things, a wife and a son that wasn't even mine.

Anyway, "Iguru ria maundu mothe we wi ngai, wikaga magegania uuihurite hinya, na nikio ngoro yakwa iihorite hinya nikumenya wi munduiriri" bwana ni mwema..