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Thread time. I’ve found myself spending a fair bit more time on here, in a good way. I’ve genuinely gotten a lot out of jumping into twitter and connecting with people to help me see sense in things and keep me lifted. Some have helped me a lot through what has been a dark time.
You’ve probably seen by now that I question the governments restrictions a fair bit. I’m no anti-masker, no conspiracy theorist or anything like that. Just a critical thinker who doesn’t take things for granted. I’ve engaged with people from both extremes of the debate.
I’ve seen it said somewhere about lockdown that it’s so much easier to believe in something when it doesn’t cost you personally. People forget how worse off others are of it. Pretty ironic considering it’s often those against lockdown who are branded selfish. Personally I’ve >>
>> seen many suffer, but also personally I have sacrificed important things too. Most of the things I had to keep healthy mentally are now gone. I’d also lost all hope of finding someone to share the rest of my life with - hardly possible in a world of social distancing.
This is a situation I was really hoping not to be in my now, at age 30. Some prefer their own company and that’s fine, but personally I don’t. As an autistic person I’ve always found this part of life difficult to achieve. Living alone like I do affects me mentally.
Last year I watched two of my best friends get married to each other. They bought their first house together this year despite lockdown and are now expecting their first child. I’ve lost hope recently of my life ever looking like that and why I’ve found myself wondering if >>
>> my life is actually worth living anymore, considering I’ve not been able to see an end in sight. During this pandemic I have never felt more pessimistic about my future and have had the worst mental health I have ever experienced.
Some may not like this, but I can’t help but think the majority of those ok with lockdown are well settled in life, have secure jobs, etc. Someone trying to get life started, or trying to get medical care when services are disrupted, or lost their job, is likely to feel different
And that’s what I wish people would realise. Covid is horrible, I wish it never had happened, but there is a far bigger picture, like mental health. I’ve never known a time when it’s been harder to feel more optimistic about the future, esp when for some it’s barely begun.
