Thread by @publicetienne, Okay, JGY (and LXC and maybe NMJ) BDSM thoughts. Mute #etmeta if [...]

Okay, JGY (and LXC and maybe NMJ) BDSM thoughts. Mute #etmeta if you want to avoid.

There are several JGYs living rent free in side my head with slightly different variations. For this I& #39;m keeping close to what I view as "canon" JGY. Mostly CQL bc fuck if I remember the book

This JGY forces himself to be as flexible as possible, truly believes he can fill any mold he decides to pour himself into. A vers, switch, sadomasochist (although the sadomasochist is complicated and sometimes messy)

He& #39;s a safe sub* for LXC, but not everyone #etmeta

*I& #39;m defining a safe sub here as someone who taps out of a scene when they need to and is generally aware of their limits/enforces them.

Content warnings for this thread are going to include past abuse that is both physical and sexual in nature.

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But if he& #39;s submitting to gain something from someone? Not safe, will actively lie and do whatever the "dom" requires. Same for any non consensual past encounters. He did what he had to do to survive.

In my head, if he was with NMJ at this point, he was not safe.

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I don& #39;t think he had a sexual thing with NMJ, but if I was to go that way, I think it was messy and involved JGY fitting himself into the mold of what he thought NMJ wanted, because of how much power he had over JGY& #39;s position.

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ANYWAY. With LXC I truly don& #39;t think he has a preference between top/bottom but he skews submissive because who else can he possibly trust to handle him with respect?

I don& #39;t think he& #39;d ever been with anyone who could truly take him as deep as he wanted before LXC #etmeta

I like a sexually experienced but not with men/bdsm LXC when JGY and he finally hook up (and yeah, you can make the case they never hook up but I refuse).

He& #39;s totally willing to go in whatever direction JGY needs, aroused by the idea of power dynamic play. Curious.

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It& #39;s easy for JGY to start being a dom as he guides LXC into this, after all LXC cherishes a chance to set down his burdens. JGY lays the framework here with things like bondage, body worship, bare hand impact and pain play. Skirts around some verbal stuff.

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JGY will hurt someone as much as they want. He& #39;ll enjoy it, too. I don& #39;t know how far LXC would go with pain play (Ah, Gusu Lan and their corporal punishment!) but he does let JGY try some more intense things on him for the sake of knowing what they feel like in pleasure #etmeta

I just really feel the JGY as a sexual sadist vibe? Even if that never comes into play with LXC. I DO NOT think he& #39;s an Actual Sadist in the terms of torture etc but ymmv!

Side note: I bet he could take Xue Yang APART (love me a good xueyao).

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At the end of the day being a dom/sadist just takes a lot of fucking planning and a lot of fucking energy and JGY carries so much around that while he& #39;s so happy to give LXC the release HE needs, JGY craves it for himself.

The idea of honestly submitting to LXC is heady #etmeta

Honestly submitting to LXC& #39;s will in the bedroom pushes him deep enough where he stops thinking of everything as a fucking transaction. Where he stops calculating and trying to plan.

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There is a lot of trial and error for LXC and JGY to get to where JGY can actually submit. I think LXC isn& #39;t hesitant, but takes a while to find a mental groove where he can accept fully that this is safe and good? He has to come to terms with a few things abt himself #etmeta

Now JGYs been through so much canon physical abuse (three times down the stairs? Madame Jin? The fucker at Qinghe), it& #39;s hard not to extrapolate some of this as sexual assault. It feels like the canon is obliquely pointing to it a few times, anyway. #etmeta

I think LXC treats him gently at first because 1)he& #39;s LXC gentle is what he does; 2) he& #39;s still learning and refuses to let JGY goad him into being rougher.

But I don& #39;t think JGY *wants* gentle (he needs it sometimes, but that& #39;s another thing all together). #etmeta

LXC has a praise kink 100% no fucking doubt about it, praise that boy and he SHINES. But JGY.

Maybe this is going to be controversial. But JGY wants LXC to strip his agency away from him. I think the first time LXC cautiously turns his words sharp, JGY responds #etmeta

JGY wants LXC to tear him fucking to pieces. He wants him to use every nasty insult thrown at him and make it safe*

He wants to cry. He wants to sob. He wants to be hurt (and yeah, I think punished).

*it& #39;s me, ya boy here with the kinky tenderness sorry not sorry. #etmeta

JGY can& #39;t see you raise a hand. It snaps him out of the scene faster than anything. You can& #39;t slap him, you can& #39;t hit the front of his body without him being blindfolded.

He likes it when LXC pins him down, likes it when he& #39;s restrained. He allows LXC so many liberties #etmeta

At the end of the day both he and LXC want to stop thinking when they sub for one another. It just takes so much more work to get JGY to let go and there are so many more pitfalls. #etmeta

Okay I think I& #39;m done for now. I have other thoughts that focus on (trembling ever so little) Yaoyao but those are more specific to my own fic and i& #39;m not gonna drop age ply stuff on the main timeline, I don& #39;t think. #etmeta

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