it’s been two years today since my mom passed away. there isn’t a day that i don’t miss her. my freshman year of hs she had a stroke and she never fully recovered but when it first happened i was so afraid i was going to loose her but she made it through, she didn’t talk after +

the stroke, she only said a few words because it was so hard for her. then, two years ago i found out she had stage 4 lung cancer for 10 years.. she didn’t want me to found out since i was so young so i found out three months before she passed. the week leading up to her +

passing was the hardest, you could tell she knew she didn’t have much longer, i was standing by her earlier that week talking to my dad, she was sitting in her wheelchair and she grabbed my hand and hugged me real tight. she was one of the strongest people i’ve ever known +

two years ago today not only did my mom pass away but my great uncle did too.. also from stage 4 lung cancer, we didn’t know he was sick until after he had passed but he went first and my mom passed a few hours later. the following week i had to go to two funerals for two people+

who i loved so much. but i never thought i’d loose my mom when i was only 19 i thought i’d have more time. “this morning i woke up still dreaming with memories playing through my head you& #39;ll never know how much i miss you the day that they took you, i wish it was me instead” +

when i listened to those lyrics from two of us by louis tomlinson i instantly related to it, i hope my mom knew that even though i would get mad at my dad for leaving me by myself constantly to take care of her when i didn’t know how, and took that out on her, that she knew +

that i loved her so much. “oh i cried when my momma passed away
and now i got an angel looking out for me today” these lyrics are from this by darius rucker and every time i hear it i just know how even though i can’t see her, she’s still here.

“i’ll always love my mama she& #39;s my favorite girl” ( i’ll always love my mama by the intruders) i miss her so much and i’m gonna love and miss her until the day i die.
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