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I came up with so many random examples, I had to pause to think about what they all had in common and it& #39;s that they were all self initiated. Not having to ask for what I want and then getting it is the best thing ever. It& #39;s also the worst because nobody is a mind reader. https://twitter.com/Thetinnie_/status/1310615764970475520">https://twitter.com/Thetinnie...
I& #39;ve become really good at asking for what I want cos the things I like tend to be really specific & there& #39;s no point getting mad at anyone for not getting it cos human being, not magician. But I don& #39;t want to have to ask cos it& #39;s worth a thousand times more when it& #39;s not my idea
So I& #39;m not mad if I don& #39;t get it. And I& #39;m over the moon if I do. Took me a long time to figure this out & I& #39;m super glad I clocked it cos I used to get so mad at needing to ask for what I wanted. What I want the most is to not have to ask for what I want. How do you ask for that?
And I used to not want to explain it cos I thought I was doing too much and it made me a difficult person to love but I& #39;ve learned better now. I like what I like. My needs are valid. I deserve. I& #39;m not extra. I& #39;m just fine.
Self awareness is so sweet a thing to have. I loveet.
Self awareness is so sweet a thing to have. I loveet.
For example, I like the thought behind gifts more than the gift itself. So if I get something, I might not open it, which might make the person think I don& #39;t like it. I do. I just like having things to open on days I don& #39;t feel so good, so I leave things unopened on purpose.
There& #39;s no way to get such a specific need met without first understanding it & then maybe articulating it to a loved one. "I like the feeling of that you got me something more than the thing you actually bought." what does that even mean?
I have presents from my birthday last year I& #39;ve not even opened. I guess cos my "not so good days" are few and far between. But I look at them and feel so happy that all these people bought me presents. One day, I& #39;ll finish opening them. There& #39;s no rush 
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Like when people send me Chocomilo. There& #39;s more Chocomilo in my pantry than I can finish this year. And there& #39;s plenty in the African store if I ever run out. But that feeling when someone goes to Naija and thinks of me, or has someone coming & they send it? I so much loveet!
So my thank you isn& #39;t really for the Chocomilo. It& #39;s for thinking about me & making an effort to do something you know would bring me happiness. And it& #39;s a thousand times more valuable cos you self initiated it than if I asked for it. Cos I don& #39;t really need Chocomilo. I& #39;m good.
