Hello, please become Orthodox Christian. Visit an Orthodox Church near you using the directory below, and please read "Nihilism" by Fr Seraphim Rose.
http://www.assemblyofbishops.org/directories/parishes?radius=10&search_address=&search_coordinates=&search_error=INVALID_REQUEST&searchType=proximity&alb=false&ant=true&bgr=false&cpr=true&geo=false&goa=true&mos=false&roc=true&oca=true&rom=false&ser=false&ukr=false">https://www.assemblyofbishops.org/directori...
http://www.assemblyofbishops.org/directories/parishes?radius=10&search_address=&search_coordinates=&search_error=INVALID_REQUEST&searchType=proximity&alb=false&ant=true&bgr=false&cpr=true&geo=false&goa=true&mos=false&roc=true&oca=true&rom=false&ser=false&ukr=false">https://www.assemblyofbishops.org/directori...