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Watching the @flintoff11 documentary about bulimia has been uncomfortable due to how close to home it is.
I have always had body issues for as long as I can remember. In my teens and early 20s I was addicted to exercise. I would binge drink and eat, but train hard
Watching the @flintoff11 documentary about bulimia has been uncomfortable due to how close to home it is.
I have always had body issues for as long as I can remember. In my teens and early 20s I was addicted to exercise. I would binge drink and eat, but train hard
to the point of vomiting, exhaustion just to try and get a good body. I would run for miles, go to the gym daily and was never happy. I could always see fat. I could not look at my chest in the mirror because I didn't have pecs.
I still feel all of these feelings every single
I still feel all of these feelings every single
day. However, I have stopped training because my body image is so low I have no motivation and feel low. Feeling low results in me hating my body more and making wrong food choices, resulting in an ever perpetuating circle.
I know what my mind is like. When I train, it is to
I know what my mind is like. When I train, it is to
the extreme. But I am so unfit now, so cannot do what I used to do which makes me feel bad again.
I am the heaviest I have ever been and cannot even look in a mirror at the moment. Dealing with this internally and doing my job is exhausting.
I am the heaviest I have ever been and cannot even look in a mirror at the moment. Dealing with this internally and doing my job is exhausting.
This is not a thread looking for sympathy. Just just to say well done @flintoff11 for bringing this into the public eye. It helps people like me realise we are not on our own.
