‘recovery’ has rly high expectations... doctors/hospital taught me i had to begin with the biggest meal plan & put on all the weight in a single go, but that only made me relapse fast. instead i’ve been going at my own pace for months now, slowly breaking down rules & fear(1/3)

foods, doing things i haven’t done in years.. and it’s working. i ate at school for the first time all year the other week, i went out to a bar and drunk alcohol (!!!!!), i had chocolate bc i felt like it (big !!!) and i’ve been stable for the longest consecutive period (2/3)

of time in 4 yrs. i made the decision to put on weight the other day bc i’m becoming more okay with myself. still battling thoughts but i’m not bound to my ed anymore. makes me realise it is possible to get better from this. don’t put so much pressure on urself <3