this response is gonna be long so i’m gonna start it in the replies https://twitter.com/shconfessionsss/status/1310298013382909952

s3lfh4rm is a fucking addiction. it’s so so hard to quit when it is your coping mechanism. it’s unhealthy, yes, but it’s all i have. saying your experience is fact is very invalidating for people who have relapsed.

i’ve wasted so much money on blades and first aid, etc. i’ve stolen blades because my urges were so severe and i had no money left. it’s made me lie to people and no one trusts me anymore. you’d think that’d be a reason to stop cutt1ng but it’s an addiction and i crave it.

cutt1ng is all i think about. when will i do it? how much bl00d will i lose? will i hit f4t? will i finally d13 this time? will i hit a v31n? will i hit an art3ry? will i need st1tches? what will my next sc4r look like? will it fade away? it’s so. fucking. tiring.

i’ve covered myself in sc4rs that will never go away. my body is sc4rred to all hell and i still can’t imagine quitting. i can’t wear short sleeves anymore. i can’t wear shorts anymore. i suffer in hot weather just so people don’t ask about them.

i’ve ruined through so many shirts and pants. i’m constantly scared that there’s bl00d seeping through my pants and sleeves. i feel bl00d on me even if it’s not there. i can still smell it on my clothes after several washes.

my sc4rs itch and ache and burn and hurt but i still want more and more and more. it’s an add1ction. you can’t cut once and then think you’re a cutt3r.

you can’t come onto the internet and say that shit, thinking you’ve inspired people to go clean. shut the fuck up with your savior complex and get away from s/h/twt.