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Let's talk about this.. Here about me
Let's talk about this.. Here about me
Back then I'm an Introvert, I don't know how to get along and I don't have any courage to approach and talk to people even for having small talk neither in real life nor in social media and I can't even do presentation infront of people I'll be shaking and sweating like hell..
During my diploma in UniKL MFI, I don't have many friends and I only know my classmate. My routine was so boring class, hostel, class again. I don't get myself involve with any activities in my Uni except for Chess because this game doesn't need me to talk to people... 
Final year in diploma I've challenged myself to try getting involved with at least one activity before graduate so I start with joining the MFI Futsal team and join KSSU for 2 semesters. But still, I'm an Introvert cause I just know my teammates and I don't talk much...
But everything has changed when I'm in degree, like what my counselor has said to me before I leave my degree life and I still remember It until now. I came to his room with one of My Friend and If I'm not mistaken It was Yatt and He said...
"Yatt.. Awak tak kenal Bet ni dulu dia tak macam dia yang Awak kenal sekarang, Bercakap dengan orang pun tak nak. Sekarang dah ramai dah kawan dia sejak saya ajak join RSBS siap dia tarik Awak sekali join" My caunselor knew me well, only He knew how Introvert I am...
First year in my degree life I still an Introvert until one blessing day I go to my caunselor room asking for his advice about how to handle my nervousness during presentation. I know I need help so I'm seeking for help then He offered me to join his counseling club, RSBS..
He said, I need to get to know more people and be in a group of community so that I can slowly sharpen my social skills and slowly reduce my nervousness when facing people. Encik Am really help me a lot with this cause when I'm in RSBS I learned how to live my life..
During my degree life joining the RSBS I've learned about a lot of things. My caunselor room already became my lepak room whenever I don't have class. Sometimes If my friend got a problem I'll bring them to see Encik Am, the most sempoi caunselor I've ever met..
Even He is a caunselor and I always came to see him for an advice but He really treat me like his Best Friend so that I don't feel awkward to share or ask anything with him. The most interesting part knowing him is He like to share his skills of counseling, handling people..
Know that during my lepak time at his room, I'll tell him about How's my day sometimes about conflict with my study, friends and family so he know It all. Sometimes I ask him solution to get out from all those drama, sometimes I just need him to listen to my rant..
Sometimes I will ask him a solution for My Friend's problem and how to handle them. I guess I'm a good listener and good at counsel people too cause My Friends always came to me for advices, some of em call me Dr. Cinta. Adlina said "Bet kau dah boleh bukak kaunter" LOL..
Because I like to hear My Friend's problem then Encik Am thought me about Empathic Listening. I really glad that I have learned this skills from him and also I've learned a few more social skills about counseling and handling people from him. I felt so blessed..
Other than that, Encik Am really help me to coop and be responsible with my life. When I'm in RSBS he had assigned me to handle a few program and project under RSBS and counseling club, also I've got one project under my name as program director. One of my achievements..
He also gave me a chance to be an inboard organization by giving me one of the MT positions. I have no confidence to handle It but He pushes me to give It a try. The position as treasurer may look easy for you but not for me. I need to interact with more people weh.. 
Imagine how an Introvert needs to find people and asking for their money. Bak kata orang "Nak ajak borak pun segan apatah lagi nak mintak duit" I tell myself "It's about responsibility Ash" that's how I slowly reducing my nervousness and slowly becoming an Extrovert..
Also, Encik Am had encouraged me to join the community in and out of college. That's how I can join #Kamaliens KA's FC knowing Kamal and her Anak-Anak Alien sampai boleh lepak dekat mamak. I like this community they care and love each other like they Family. HAHAHAHA!!
After joining Kamaliens, My social skills had improved a lot and I'm starting to have a courage to join any of volunteer programs and get myself involve with college activities as many as I can. Also during my presentation, I'm not shaking or sweating anymore. I grew up.. 
Commitment becoming bigger and my life getting busier so I don't have much time with Kamaliens. After all one year of memories, 2017-2018 with Anak-Anak Alien will always be my fav memoir. I'm glad I've met this Family even we're not close like we used to be. Life goes on..
Some Friends are just like seasons, When comes to time It will pass and leave you with all those memories. After that, I've met Intan and she's introducing me to her awesome and gorgeous Gossip Girls. Knowing all these girls is one of my life's greatest blessings..
I knew that some Friends are just like seasons, people come and go but I always pray that not for this one, Alpha Chi Omega will always be together like Friends for a lifetime. Even after we graduated and we becoming apart but we always have each other back..
After knowing these Girls I've become less introverted and more extroverted cause I've got the courage to go with what my heart wants and told me to do. They are so supportive and always push me to do what best for me. May Allah shower them with his blessing..
When my life getting stable and I'm slow turning to extrovert. Encik Am suggests me to join back the Futsal team but I told him that Futsal isn't really my game plus Eagle are not there so I've changed to Chess and played for some tournament including the IRC and Masiswa.. ♟
"When you're in the right circle you will grow and glow differently" so I guess I've found mine. Actually It's a long tiring journey but I have nothing to regret instead of counting my blessings. Even I didn't make It but in this road I've found myself and I've found My Squad..
After a long tiring journey, I've learned that to push yourself off to the limit sometimes will lead you to a brighter future. Bear the risk and don't be afraid of failures, take control of your life as "What It is" takes your hands off from the things that you can't control..
Hey.. Let go and Let God.. Have Faith in whatever you do and If you failed, know that you're still human cause you still need improvement. If you take life as "What It Is" you have nothing to stress and regret because the dots of your Fate connecting, Everything are meant to be..
