When ppl be telling me that they hope to be the type of mother I am I be like please don’t say that.. because I literally criticize myself ALOT as a mom I cry a lot I worry a lot and I’m always asking my dead ppl how I can be a better mom or if I’m raising my child right...

You don’t see the tears or the anxious voice notes that I send my friends when I think I’ve done something wrong as a mom.. tbh I think I need to chill out a lot more..like I really be healing my childhood/adult trauma while raising a tiny human and that is scary as shit

Like healing your traumas and also trying to make sure you don’t raise a child that has to heal horrible mom wounds is tough and emotional.. that’s one of the reasons I feel like apologizing to my child or thoroughly explaining things to her being patient is important

And THST is the honest to God truth.. ESPECIALLY after going through a divorce splitting a home healing from that tryna build myself back up adjust my finances my mental and also make sure my baby thriving happy n growing.. I REALLy be on my real hot anxious girl shit bout my kid

Like no lie my spirits be like IF THIS BITCH ASK IF SHE A GOOD MOTHER ONE MOE GATDAYUM TIME.. but it’s cuz I really be worried and I don’t want any one to be like that I be tryna chill tf ou