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will delete later but for today& #39;s tmi
i am listening to the playlist i made for him but never really had the courage to send. the very first song is enchanted by taylor swift and taylor always makes me want to just bare everything so,, i made this thread
i met him shs. i never really gave him a second glance for i was busy with school, friends, and just life in general. my friend always talks about him since he& #39;s in the same class as her but i never really understood the hype.
fast forward enrollment for 12th grade. we were the only people inside the room filling in pur registration forms. it was the first time i actually got to take a good look at you. not gonna lie, i actually understood why my friend won& #39;t stop talking about you.
i asked her about you, obviously. we never really talked until the second sem was almost over. it was the happiest months of my life. i got to know you during that short period of time.
i learned that we both had the same music taste, and that my friend was talking to you non-stop about me. how "alike" we are. i remember the time i asked you to hangout so we can play guitar together. (we never got to do it)
we would send each other song recommendations and covers (though we promised each other it& #39;s for our ears only). idk why i& #39;m doing this thread and where this is going but i just miss you.
i remember the first time we talked in person. it was entrep week, your class is doing a photo booth and my friend thought it would be a good idea for me to have a photo with you for the sake of memories as the year is almost over.
being a whipped mf i agreed. i was busy the whole day because i was in the promotion team for my class& #39;s business. fast forward it was time for pur picture and my nerves are eating me up. i was so used to just admiring you from afar.
people are telling me that you were looking for me for hours on end. fast forward we took a picture. everyone was hyping us up. your classmates, mine. and for a split second you did too because of all your flirty gestures like wrapping your arms around me, putting your face–
closer than my heart can take. few months more and graduation came. you were looking for me again because we never really saw each other during the ceremony (fcking school don& #39;t allow us to roam around) we took a picture together –last one we ever have.
college came around, i studied in a different city and you did too. we still talk virtually, made plans to meet (we never did). our conversations were my much needed boost on very tiring days.
i remember your birthday when i was supposed to meet your friends and family. if it wasnt that late i would& #39;ve made it. you said it was fine but after that our conversations became less frequent. and i felt like i& #39;m the only one pushing things so i stopped. you did too.
when i felt that we don& #39;t have that same energy anymore, i took a step back. the thing is, you took 3. after that i just ghosted you. if i was going to get hurt, might as well do it on my terms.
there was a time where my friends use my phone to hit you up, you responded. they thought i will continue. nope. i feel like i was the only one hoping there was something and i& #39;d rather hurt not talking to you than to have you respond to me but clearly uninterested.
