hey i know this is really grim and stuff but
does anyone have any knowledge of getting a visa in the us?

my household situation is really bad right now. i want to act but i dont really want to risk the chances of getting a visa in the us again. im from ireland and thats the only place i have citizenship. i currently live in barbados.

which is the middle of no where. there isnt many resources here. something happened that was the last straw for me and i just need to focus on getting out of here any way i can.

i lived in the us for the past 2 years but my father did something stupid so i lost my visa. ive only lived here a month. my goal since moving here has always been getting back to the us. but i have no support in that regard. im on my own and its jarring

im straight up desperate and want any information anyone can get me in that regard. my life has been in danger my entire life and im tired of accepting that.

you can dm me for more details in regards to my homelife but im uncomfortable sharing it because it is. not something most people want to read.

i know its really strange coming out with this and all but
im desperate
i have never encountered anyone in a similar situation to me or anyone who knows anyway they could help me
im just hoping maybe ill find someone knowledgeable about this.

i know its a jump and all but
its worth a try

but anyways
im 20, 21 december 22nd
i want to return to the us for school
i just dont have any guidance on obtaining a visa

im mainly just kicking myself for not doing anything while i still lived in the us
aside from my family situation im miserable here

hate to pull the "my parents abuse me" card but if you want to help get me out my ko-fi is here: https://ko-fi.com/aikkuwu 
i might set up something better one i have a clear plan but right now im still in the beginning stages. i just know it isnt going to be cheap

please dont act on my behalf about anything. im an adult and ive avoided reporting it this long for a reason.
overall this isnt a "i need help IMMEDIATELY" thing its a "ill need help later down the line" thing so please please dont drop money you cant afford to drop :(!!