I know I shouldn't be but I am so bummed . I saw a tweet about law firms looking for trans med mal cases probably due to Mermaids UK Trans getting booted and I just sobbed.

My life has been cut short, I have a handicapped arm for life, I lost my house, my car, my wife,

my job, my career, my dignity. I've been laughed at in the ER shunned, not able to think with a reoccurring bacteria infection from trans health, no one thought I was sick, even my family, I was alone trying to survive from botched trans health, I've passed out from pain to

awake alone on the bathroom floor, with no one. I moved 1200 miles, packed my house that I lost & drove to be with my kids while having a bacteria infection most would crumble from. I did this alone; no one thought I was sick, the ER doctors; I would hear them laugh at me, "Oh

that trans guy in room 1 fake penis," ha ha. The trauma of it all cause me to not able to leave my house for 6 month. I have lost every part of everything that I worked for my entire life and now I live in an unfinished basement as I pick up the pieces. But, I did it, I

picked myself up to save other people's kids from medical transition. I outed myself, my family, I have been relentless, writing politicians, I've probably called 1500 people, written 2000 emails and letters, I've had death threats, I've been attacked by radical trans, from

radical feminist, from religious people. I have been accosted for working with religious people, Ive been accused of not being sincere and now a small percentage and I know its small percentage (please dont send me hate, I know its small) of my efforts have led the way for others

to be financially compensated by Trans Surgeons like Dr. Crane.

I know this is suppose to be a celebretory time & I'm so happy, but seeing that tweet about attorneys now seeking trans patients for medical malpractice made me, well sob. My time is up, legally I can't file a

case, window shut.

So today is a bad day, tomorrow will be better but today, I'm allowing myself to sob and feel sorry for myself.

Warrior taking a deep breath, releasing to continue to fight again tomorrow.