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Yall, I really haven’t recognised myself for a little over a year now. I was in such a fucked up situation, with an abusive & controlling boy who gaslit the hell out of me & convinced me that everything was my fault. I lost my whole identity. Life was risked twice -
Always trying to make up for his insecurities. Always doing everything in my power to make him happy and in the mean time I lost myself. I wasn’t standing in my truth or happiness anymore. I was forcing myself to be the person he wanted me to be. I was so afraid ALL of the time.
I lost so many close friends. I lost myself. I erased every part of myself I thought he wouldn’t like. I went through extremely traumatic experiences alone while he went out and partied. & keep in mind, these experiences I went though I could’ve lost my life. He did not care.
And it always used to perplex me, how he would be so nice to me on certain days, & so mean, emotionally & verbally abusive, neglectful, selfish, manipulative, and disrespectful on other days. I would hold on to the good instead of seeing the full picture for what it really was
I’m saying all this to say, ladies, please just be aware of the person you are with & how you feel when you are around them. DO THEY LIKE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE? Are you afraid when you’re with them? Do you feel like your light is gone? Are you walking on eggshells?
How does your body feel? Does your body feel tight? Is there a fear bubble in your chest or solar plexus? Are you sad? Are you neglecting parts of yourself? Take time to listen to yourself and to your body. And please ladies, please honour yourself and your happiness.
Love is not controlling. Love is not abusive. Love is not neglectful. Love will not make you lose parts of yourself. Love will not gaslight you. Love is not narcissistic. Love will not make you afraid. Love will not give you PTSD. Love is freeing, love is patient, love is kind.
Remember that you are worth it all and then some. If nobody has told you today, YOU are amazing. YOU beautiful. YOU are worthy. YOU are worth it. YOU are doing an amazing job. YOU are deserving of everything good. Love and protect yourself please.
A good practice is to look at a picture of yourself as a young child. Ask yourself if that child deserves to go through the things you’re going through now. Protect that child. Tell that child how much you love her. She deserves unconditional love and so do you. 
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