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what skinny skinny by @Ashton5SOS means to me: a thread
- tw for the whole thread // ed, food restriction
- tw for the whole thread // ed, food restriction
i& #39;ve written this so many times over the last two days, and it& #39;s never felt right. i know i& #39;m a little late to the party as far as talking about this song, but i needed to do it on my own time when i felt truly ready
i& #39;ve struggled with anorexia since i was nine, i& #39;ve spent ten years of my life fighting with this disorder. it breaks my heart remembering those early days of first hiding my body and trying to & #39;fix& #39; what i thought was wrong with it
my junior year of high school (16-17) was by far the hardest year of my life. i was deteriorating every day, losing more and more of myself with every pound i lost. my music suffered, my grades suffered, and i lost all of my friends aside from a couple who could still stand me
as dramatic as it sounds, i would& #39;ve lost my life if i hadn& #39;t gotten things back under control after that year. physically recovering was probably the hardest thing i& #39;ve ever done, but i never mentally changed how i view food, so it& #39;s been an ongoing battle even today
the shame that comes with eds is something i feel needs to be talked about more. i& #39;ve stopped myself from sharing this because i still feel like i& #39;m not & #39;sick enough& #39; or that i never was. someone always has it worse, so what gives me the right to find meaning in this song?
that& #39;s all wrong though. i don& #39;t have to be where i was when i was 17 to still be sick, to still be relapsing and struggling. skinny skinny has become an enduring reminder that i& #39;m not alone, and i& #39;m far from the only person to have to fight these battles
i& #39;m going to close this out by saying thank you to @Ashton5SOS for everything he& #39;s done over the years. his wise words, strength, and willingness to share his struggles with us has helped me more than i& #39;ll ever be able to express in a couple tweets
i know i& #39;m still here today as a testament of my own strength, i don& #39;t think i could& #39;ve done without having someone like ashton to look up to as i grew up into the person i am now. so thanks again ashton for showing me what true strength is, and for being a light in the dark
your willingness to be so raw and honest in your art and music helps so many people, myself included. for years you& #39;ve been my hope, you& #39;ve been what keeps me going. words won& #39;t ever be able to describe my thanks to you.
i cannot wait to hear what the rest of superbloom has to offer, i know it will go down in history as something incredible.
if you& #39;ve read this far, thank you. i cherish the friendships i& #39;ve made here so much and i can& #39;t thank my friends enough for being so incredible <3
if you& #39;ve read this far, thank you. i cherish the friendships i& #39;ve made here so much and i can& #39;t thank my friends enough for being so incredible <3
end of thread. stream skinny skinny by @Ashton5SOS and listen to superbloom out october 23rd <3
