Thank you for those who notice my sudden disapearance from the world.



Tkot bodo tido dlam toilet.
Toilet dah la tkdek tgkap, tau siang malam pn dri azan.
Tak makan 24 jam.
Jerit org tak dgr.
Ketuk segala bnda pn no respond.
Luka2 tgh kopak pintu.

Let's the story begins~

From the first day lagi, pintu toilet tu macam loklak. Hritu kne dah skali, tpi after 30 min brjaya escape. Rupanya handle tu kne tolak ke atas. Cis

Smalam lpas tgok kg people, pi la mandi pkul 10pm. Tak bawa phone lah, sbb takkan nak main phone time mandi ahhaah. Time nak kluar, tiba handle dia mcm loose semacam je Sendal dia tak bergerak sis.

Lpas dah tolak handle atas bawah, dah rempuh pintu pn tak trbukak Takpelah, kita cari barang untuk umpil pintu. Jumpa bucu pencuci muka- lmbut sgt, pinggan alas toiletries hotel tak muat plak nk selit.

Cari bawah sinki, jumpa banyak para fron metal. Pusing2 screw, dapat lah first snjata. Time nak umpil pintu, eh.... nnti kene bayar ganti rugi lak. Kita lek lu. Cari jalan lain.

Pandang atas ada lubang kat ceiling. Tolak2, hurm tak jadi lah gelap sgt takot lak ada hantu. Dah la malam jumaat hurm. Tggu siang lah kita check balik.

Dengar TV kat luar, dah nightline dah. Hurm dah pkul 12 sis. Dahlah toilet tadek tingkap or lubang angin, panas siot. Bpe kali basuh muka balik, sebab panas Hurm takpelah, kita tggu frontliner bg breakfast esok lah, buat bunyi bising mintak tolong.

So, tido toilet la malam semalam. Dduk atas magkuk tandas, kepala letak dekat atas pam tandas. Alas kepala dgn tuala. Tido macam duduk atas kerusi time exam. Cramp kaki tengkuk semua tapi tkleh nak lelap mata pn sis. Takot hantu msuk dalam mimpi

So, the overthinking start. Macam mana nak bgtau people im here? How to make them search for me? The next swab will be on day 13. Another 9 days living like this? Sedih siot mati sia2 je dalam toilet. Dah la die slowly, starving sengsara till last moment.

Pstu mereput sbb toilet byk moisture kan. Jmpe2 dah tk rupa orang Even mungkin diorg prasan makanan tk bersntuh, tpi bleh je pkir eh budak ni ada byk mkanan lain la tu dlm bilik

Baik bunuh diri je. Astaghfirullah . The fastest way is to be covid positive. Confirm dia mai cari kat bilik an. so im started to pray to be covid positive. Then azan subuh. Pstu dgr trolley htr makanan, my room dah la tgkat 14, pling hujung tdek jiran dah kat sblah

Tggu la dia tkan loceng bilik, so dekat la skit. Bila jerit or buat bunyi at least dgr lah. Tiba dia trus buat announcement sis. Koyak. 12 jam dah dalam tu. Pstu kene tgah time lunch la ni another 6 hours? Tak lama lpas tu phone room bunyi 2 kali. Is it KKM? Am i positive?

Pstu, tggu2 tkdek org mai pn. Mgkin dia mai lepas solat jumaat kot. Kecewa lagi. Lpas tu dah start kne anxiety, skit lagi nak panic attack ahhaha. Tachycardia truk sis. Perut lapar, angin dah macam2 bunyi, mulut dah kering. Kita minum air paip je la.

So, nak save tenaga and elak anxiety, sambung tido balik. Azan zohor. Dgar trolley mai. Ready untuk loceng, tadek jugak. Dia trus announcement. Lpas tu, mmg trus tukar mindset. Takpe2, kita try hidup smpai asar je. Takyah pkir future dah. Lek2 je.

Azan asar, dah tkleh nk tido dah. Tak tahu nak buat ape. Lets make some move. At least dpat distract from overthinking while time tickle. I climb the ceiling, atas tu penuh paip je. Harapnya adalah ruang yang bersambung dengan bilik lain mcam dlm movie tu

Skali atas tu, dinding toilet bersambung smpai atas. So dia mcam 4 sided wall of batu bata. No room for escape Atas shower, ada 1 lubang ceiling jgk. Jadi spiderman sat, tapi sama je. Dinding. So, no other way to escape.

Room phone dah makin kerap bunyi, kadang dia tekan loceng panggil2 nama. Dah tak sanggup nk letak harapan. Bila ntah dia nak bukak pintu. Partograf pn after 8 hours, dah kene take action.

Ni dah almost 20 hours... Kalau suicide amik PCM / MI / stroke / labour dah mati ni ...What was the threshold to take action? I donno. My mind dah start hallucinating jerit, pkul pintu dgn besi pn org tk dgr sob sob

Sblum tu dah siap tlis wasiat kat cermin, mana tau jmpe2 dah mati So the only choice i have is vandalisme First i remove the wooden door frame. Banyak siot paku kat kayu tu

Then i try to make hole kat door. Ingt kan playwood. Rupanya solid wood sis. Astaghfirullah. So, i just umpil from side, until i reach the handle lock. Pstu tak larat dah sis. Penat nak mampuih. Dah la tak makan. Pstu redha je lah. Mgkin after 24 hours, bru dia cari kot

Then miracle happen.
Frontliner bukak pintu. Kita ape lagi nangis lah hahahahah.... Pkul brpe tak thu la. Nak pkul 7 jgk la

Kita jerit2 dri toilet mcam nak kluar anak tekak, depa cakap, saya dgar sayup2 je lpas masuk tdi.

Imagine aku jerit slama ni mmg tdek org dgr

Awak okey tak? Ni from KKM
Okey2. Lapar je. Dri tdi minum air paip. (Nangis)

Tkpe2 makan dlu. sakit perut tak? Dri pkul brpe ni?
10 malam.

Dia bukak pintu dri luar tarik handle secoet trus trbukak guys. Yang belah dalam tu mmg dah rosak. Kentut pnye pintu

Pstu, depa main experiment try bukak dari dalam mmg tkleh bukak.

Kami prasan dah mcam ada something tak kene. Makanan brekfes, lunch, dinner tak bersntuh. Pstu eh bunga pn tak amik bdak ni, something wrong ni.

To my friends who decide to make surprise for me today, yoy guys literally save my life. Thank you for being so sweet.

To jiran2 satu floor, yang prasan i tak amik makanan, thank you for being so prihatin.

It thought i die alone in toilet

Banyak la dapat life reflection dalam toilet ni.

Boleh try la guys sapa berminat

Okey update harini,
They change my room to 3rd floor. Dekat skit dgn receptionist at least.

I cant sleep smpai lah 7am tdi. Spe suruh minum nescafe.

Tpi yang klakar nye, my parents still tak tahu their daughter hilang for almost 24 hours

Since last night got multiple call, ws from my friends. Even my friends' parents.

Terharu teroxx sis.

My parents still chill lgi.

Check phone. Berpuluh lah miss call. Ws tenang2 je. Sebab no one knows except my neighbours hahah

Check group family, tdek orang prasan pn haahahah.

Kita pnye la dlam toilet, doa moga my mother got instinct anak dia dlam bhaya. Pstu pi call hotel suh check ape brlaku dalam bilik takpun call my friend ke, or tnye kt group parent student.

Mom feel nothing. Forget to ask me, because smalam busy skit niaga. Balik2 penat, tido hahaha.

Me like, mana naluri ibu pergi??? Am i anak angkat hahaha. Gurau2 je pagi tdi

Ada hikmah lah. At least mom tak risau sgt, nnti abis darah tggi, semua naik pstu sakit lak.

So, tido sat pkul 7.
Org kkm call kul 9am

They ask detail story psal event smalam. Kne bebel skit la awat makan skit je. Air knpe tak minum 2L sehari. Awak medical student kan, should be more vigilant.

Hurm. Selera mmg tadek dah since day 1 lgi sbnrnye hahah

They give me some medication for my small cuts.

Awak reti kan wound dressing?
Tahu2.

Ha. Nnti cuci luka dgn ni.
Me like.. what is this? Tak jmpe pn kat India

Cant wait to see my parents and family after 1 year++ tak balik dri India sbb covid

Yang penting dah hbis medical degree aaaaaaaa.

Lupa nak letak gmbr lepas say bubye to my tragic room

My room sebelah team member access (what is dis??)

Tpi bilik ni toilet dia mcam masuk ke dalam lagi.

So nak cakapnye, toilet tu kat bhgian bilik tangga tu (2nd pic)

Ni lah orang cakap, meyalak ke dinding.
Dah menyalak, jatuh ditimpa tangga lak tu. (Tadek kaitan)

Plastik kuning tu tempat buang sisa makanan hari2. Ltak kerusi kat luar so, senang frontliner nk isi mkanan