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As much as I know I& #39;m aro and ace, there& #39;s one thing that always put into questioning. It happen mostly for stuff I read online, because when I& #39;m alone with written words and just my head, thoughts always move around.
I step out in the world, interact with people and (1/?)
I step out in the world, interact with people and (1/?)
so on, once I& #39;m back home I realize that I never felt any interest for anyone. I appreciate them in various way, but I never feel any push or need to interact with them other than friendship. But after reaching the conclusion of being ace, then aro, I kept exploring. (2/?)
I know for sure I do feel other types of attractions, but it& #39;s... let& #39;s say confusing, or it open the pit of doubts, when I see stuff like "I used to identify as ace then I was just *insert orientation*". One part of me is sad, if not a bit angry, because it& #39;s not so good (3/?)
to see my orientation being painted, when the wording is quite telling, like a phase that one will pass over once they realize their true self. Anyway, it opens to doubts because only after getting I& #39;m aro I started to realize: I can still appreciate other genders, be (4/?)
attracted to people in my own way, I can still have a relationship and so on. But when I read stuff like "I used to say I was just aesthetically attracted" I cannot help but think: what if I& #39;m lying to myself? I tend to forget that, after talking to many not aro/ace people (5/)
to some diffrent attraction type make little sense. To some it all comes togehter, so a type of attraction for them may be more telling that what it& #39;s for me. It doesn& #39;t help when I relate to an experience that is said to be exclusively, or mostly experienced, (6/?)
by another orientation. But it& #39;s not actually a proof, because I saw multiple people of diffrent orientations relate to that or this experience too. In moment of crisis I tend to forget how some queer experience can overlap even if some people would deny it. (7/?)
I think it& #39;s not much talked how my whole spectrum of attraction was pushed to cater the needs of allocishet men, my freedom of being firstly and and simply aro and ace (without any particular nuance) always cut off. It was like passing between two phases, (8/?)
firstly liberating from the whole society that wanted me to be attracted to a specific gender, then to gain my own freedom of liking what I wanted how I wanted. One side of me is certain of my aspec part. I remember describing characters in my story as such, without even (9/?)
knowing at the time what it was all about. I remember the absolute sense of relif, a summer of few years ago, when I read a freaking wikipedia page and something clicked, stopping me from doing something I wasn& #39;t going to come back. I can& #39;t discharge those feelings (10/?)
just like I can& #39;t 100% ignore that from said event on I kept shifting and advancing. True, queerness shouldn& #39;t be defined into boxes, and tbh I& #39;m quite okay to "just vibing". And seeing how much shit aspec folks get from their same community, in all honesty, (11/?)
