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In a story where you slowly take bricks out of another's walls, one by one by one, not knowing how your own heart is being undone till there is nothing between your bare souls that meet and you realize that oh, it was you I was searching for all along
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When you touch him, your strong fingers feather with gentleness because he inspires it in you, he inspires your heart to protect how he has shown all of himself to you, hiding his secrets well inside your chest, him in your arms
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Holding him heals you. Takes down barriers and puts back the pieces of you that fell into place in place, adding shine and luster like a fine polish because you're amazed to know "I can be looked at in this way?" it's addictive & so so wonderful
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When he's asked about you, whether you're there, whether you're not, his eyes fill with stars, dazzling, terrifying because his lips part and he makes you a god
and you never thought you were worthy of worship
but you vow to never let those stars fade
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and you never thought you were worthy of worship
but you vow to never let those stars fade
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he lets you coo over him, coddle him, almost puppet him into things
you keep fearing when he will snap, when he will tug away & glare & tell you u're too much, bcz u've always been too much, always but all he does is smile,all he does is melt
dissolving into you sweet like candy
you keep fearing when he will snap, when he will tug away & glare & tell you u're too much, bcz u've always been too much, always but all he does is smile,all he does is melt
dissolving into you sweet like candy
you hold him, he leans closer
your palm slips into his & he squeezes tighter
you whisper in his ear & he lets out a delighted scream
you say "I love you."
outloud. outloud. outloud. fuck
fuck.fuck.
but
"me too." So easily he says for he is he.
"I love you too Phi."
your palm slips into his & he squeezes tighter
you whisper in his ear & he lets out a delighted scream
you say "I love you."
outloud. outloud. outloud. fuck
fuck.fuck.
but
"me too." So easily he says for he is he.
"I love you too Phi."
He says it on stage, at home. He says it rare but loud, clear. He says when he says it it's always from the heart when asked on that rarity? His heart that he kept tucked in blankets and sleep and dreams,his heart that he's handed to you like it was the easiest thing to give away
"Because it's you Phi."
Because it's you. Because he trusted you when no one did. Because he called you his protector when people asked if he was nervous to work with you.
Because he took one look at you and decided to save you.
Because he stayed to love you.
Because it's you. Because he trusted you when no one did. Because he called you his protector when people asked if he was nervous to work with you.
Because he took one look at you and decided to save you.
Because he stayed to love you.
& forever is a sham, flowery fairytale because every single thing in life even if inanimate is so painfully mortal
relationships, feelings, emotions, life itself
but he says
"always"
he writes
"forever"
& grins "cry baby" wiping your eyes
bcz he makes u believe in the impossible
relationships, feelings, emotions, life itself
but he says
"always"
he writes
"forever"
& grins "cry baby" wiping your eyes
bcz he makes u believe in the impossible
He is the impossible, he is not.
He is the image of forever when forever isn't real but maybe your forever, his forever, is as long as he holds your hand and he says "always" "always" and you know he means as long as he can so you hope it's for a long time,
and longer
please
He is the image of forever when forever isn't real but maybe your forever, his forever, is as long as he holds your hand and he says "always" "always" and you know he means as long as he can so you hope it's for a long time,
and longer
please
the notion of mortality to it all can bring you to your knees
even hypothetically in jest, in a meaningless question that says "what if?" what if you two part?
and you say "skip" and you say "i will cry" and he radiates warmth beside you keeping you calm
even hypothetically in jest, in a meaningless question that says "what if?" what if you two part?
and you say "skip" and you say "i will cry" and he radiates warmth beside you keeping you calm
"I like everything about you."
What a fucking cheat. What a fucking cheat because you do too. You like everything about him too and he's doing that thing again where he declares it proudly and beams when you return the sentiment because fuck when does this love stop growing?
What a fucking cheat. What a fucking cheat because you do too. You like everything about him too and he's doing that thing again where he declares it proudly and beams when you return the sentiment because fuck when does this love stop growing?
Will it outgrow your body, a body that you look at twice at in the mirror now, remembering his smirk, the lick to his lips and fuck he's such a tease-
this ache. this ache of not knowing how to hold so much love without stumbling is too much so you just let your knees buckle
this ache. this ache of not knowing how to hold so much love without stumbling is too much so you just let your knees buckle
u bite out when it thrashes inside u, u squeeze when it overwhelms u, u make the most embarrassing noises but he glows
he glows like u're the sunlight, moves to find u like a sunflower,
brightening with every bite, every squeeze, every coo
letting his body hold u up when u fall
he glows like u're the sunlight, moves to find u like a sunflower,
brightening with every bite, every squeeze, every coo
letting his body hold u up when u fall
& maybe it will be alright to let this love grow & grow & grow while forever for u & him lasts, in this world or the strange unknown beyond it, for all that spreads is beautiful, warm golden sunshine,
in a field full of flowers
in a field full of flowers
"Which flower are you Mew?"
"A forget me not"
Please.
"I hope you will be taken care of when I'm not there."
Is all I want.
"Susu na Phi, in everything you do. I will always be beside you."
& u can be selfish
u can be selfish n take his always
bcz ur only a man not a god.
"A forget me not"
Please.
"I hope you will be taken care of when I'm not there."
Is all I want.
"Susu na Phi, in everything you do. I will always be beside you."
& u can be selfish
u can be selfish n take his always
bcz ur only a man not a god.
To him you are strong, even when he catches you stumbling, giggly & weak.
To him you are the kindest, the cutest, even when he has been upset at your shout. (never again)
To him you mean forever even if once you had refused to believe in him.
"I know him well." he says
you agree
To him you are the kindest, the cutest, even when he has been upset at your shout. (never again)
To him you mean forever even if once you had refused to believe in him.
"I know him well." he says
you agree
He knows you better than yourself when he tugs you rough and kisses you deep the first time you kiss, the time when you weren't really supposed to.
He knows you better than yourself when he kisses you now that there is no witness, there are no rules.
He knows you better than yourself when he kisses you now that there is no witness, there are no rules.
"There is nothing to gossip about Pmew." Oh but there is.
"Pmew is perfect" and you're not.
but when he says it you believe him.
because he says it like it's true.
"Pmew is perfect" and you're not.
but when he says it you believe him.
because he says it like it's true.
"ask mae."
& does he even know that you mean it. that's it's not just a joke. that you will fall to your knees & grovel to his mother if it meant spending forever with him.
every time your mother calls him son your heart says now
you're only a man not a god.
& does he even know that you mean it. that's it's not just a joke. that you will fall to your knees & grovel to his mother if it meant spending forever with him.
every time your mother calls him son your heart says now
you're only a man not a god.
now, it says when he wears your shirt to work
now, it says when he kisses you into the pillow with morning breath, eyes not even open yet
now, it says when he checks you out in front of the whole world without a care
now, it says when he kisses you into the pillow with morning breath, eyes not even open yet
now, it says when he checks you out in front of the whole world without a care
now now now
not now
with your leg bouncing, one of the biggest events in your career shaking you inside out
excitement
nerves
& he arrives clad in too little silky red with too many flowers & says he'll whisk you away & all you can say is yes
"lets go"
not now
with your leg bouncing, one of the biggest events in your career shaking you inside out
excitement
nerves
& he arrives clad in too little silky red with too many flowers & says he'll whisk you away & all you can say is yes
"lets go"
taking out bricks one by one from a sulky looking boy, hiding away in the corner
was it him?
was it you?
sometimes it's hard to discern if you think too deep
was it him?
was it you?
sometimes it's hard to discern if you think too deep
but he is ur now, he is your always, your forever,
he is your impossibility, your belief in disbelief,
he is the worship you don't think you deserve but cherish because that is his love, a love you will protect even with all your limitations even if you are only a man not a god
he is your impossibility, your belief in disbelief,
he is the worship you don't think you deserve but cherish because that is his love, a love you will protect even with all your limitations even if you are only a man not a god
You will ask him one day.
Ask him when the sunflowers are tall enough to hide you both.
When the crinkles by his eyes don't go away with his smiles.
One day your heart will say now and you will be brave.
Till then, all you can do is stay.
Love and be loved forever, everyday.
Ask him when the sunflowers are tall enough to hide you both.
When the crinkles by his eyes don't go away with his smiles.
One day your heart will say now and you will be brave.
Till then, all you can do is stay.
Love and be loved forever, everyday.
"ask mae"
what about you? what about you my love?
I have already told you. (His hands on your cheeks. crybaby. crybaby.) I will always be by your side.
what about you? what about you my love?
I have already told you. (His hands on your cheeks. crybaby. crybaby.) I will always be by your side.
&u will cry as he smiles wiping ur face with both palms, so so gently, for u are strong, u are so strong to him, even when u're weak.
U are his strength even when u are on your knees.
He will shoulder ur weight till u can walk again.
U will carry him, spin him till he squeals.
U are his strength even when u are on your knees.
He will shoulder ur weight till u can walk again.
U will carry him, spin him till he squeals.
