for those interested, this is what im given through the tube. they are actually drinkable, just meal replacement drinks, but since i refuse to eat/drink that much i don't have a choice.

each day they put three bottles of that through my tube. 237ml (365cal) x 3 = 1085cal per day. if i eat half a meal which is what they are serving me currently, i get half the bottle. if i start eating full meals, i'll get to miss the feeding tube session for that meal.

you can't feel the food go down the tube, but they do flushes before & after with water that you can feel. they always ask if i feel sick or super full once it's done, but normally i don't feel any different, maybe bloated. they feed it through with a syringe but quite slowly.

the nurses and doctors are actually lovely, and you can have really casual conversations with them. it takes 10-15 minutes to get all the liquid through and they stand there with the syringe so you get to know eachother. im still at 'high risk' because i say suicidal stuff though

i'm going to add more to this thread about my experience with a feeding tube in hospital if anyone wants to ask questions, i'll add a part about your question if it's relevant.

figured out i used the wrong liquid stuff, so here's what im actually having. 475cal three times a day is 1425cal