I made this Twitter for 2 reasons. 1. was because when Tumblr was purging it's NSFW artists they all made a Twitter for their art so I made this account. Because I wasn't about to retweet NSFW stuff on my main I didn't even do that on Tumblr so here we are.

2. Was for those days I needed to air out some sadness that I have been feeling lately. (too many people I know follow me on there to the point I wasn't even reblogging NSFW since like 2017) anyway today is one of them days

Since I woke up today I have just felt extremely replaceable like from friends to the family I feel just so forgettable and I don't when it will go away

And couple that with the undying feeling that I don't know why I am alive and what I am doing alive I feeling like every day is the same and I don't know how to change most of it.

And the stuff I do know how to change comes with so much fear that I don't have enough confidence in myself to even begin to attempt it.

And on the replaceable stuff, I honestly have felt today that if I disappeared friends and family would cry a little bit maybe even search for me but they would feel better off and forget about me and life wouldn't really change

This is it for now I dont know how to end this type of thread (or any thread) but maybe this feeling goes away and I can delete this thread but who knows maybe it just stays