Thread by @nanabmdhj, when i got my heart broken very badly early this year by [...]

when i got my heart broken very badly early this year by a person i so genuinely love, i was pushed to a very dark corner. everyone saw it as “just a heartbreak.” i was told “you’ll be okay in a few months time” but it was so much more than that.

i don’t have to further explain for God has bear witness to all my pain for the past 9 months.

but in between my prayers and cries, i’ve always believed that Allah had the biggest plan ahead as the test sent down felt a little too heavy for the fragile heart to carry.

i believed, i had faith, i tawakkal in between my pain, tears and heartbreak.

the night I decided to submit my application to LSE, i was crying in despair. the night before I sat my IELTS speaking test, i was bawling like a mad woman. the day i sat for my reading test, my head was all over the place while answering the exam;

thinking how the hell did i get my heart so broken. the night before my 8AM scholarship interview, i was crying at 2AM. i begged myself “please, not tonight Nana. i don’t want to feel pain tonight.”

i spent the past 267 days crying and asking “how could a person just abandon another like this?” people may think, “why’s this girl so not over it?” ya, you’re right and i wish i didn’t have to be this way too.

unlike so many lucky people, it impacted me so negatively. think i enjoyed the pain i felt? think i did it for attention? think i didn’t get angry at myself for being sad? it ruined me so much. i couldn’t even begin to start with the mental & emotional trauma i was left with.

but hey, i want you all to know after dark there’ll always be light.

today, i am pursuing my passion at my dream university, at one of the most prestigious universities in the world.

after all; the heartbreak was necessary. the silent cries on my bed, the loud cries in my toilet were all necessary for it to bring me to where i am today because if not, wallahualam, only Allah knows, i would probably not work as hard as i did after the breakup.

everything was bound to happen. everything; the good and even the bad were written carefully and precisely for me to reach this point in my life.

after all, there are so many other things i can be grateful about in life. my utmost gratitude goes to you, Lord of the Universe.

may this journey be able to make me more human, to have more empathy, help me understand the rights of each and every individual on this earth and may I be able to give back to society when I return home

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for the love and support i have received from you all; i am truly in awe. thank you so so much ♡

i humbly seek for your help that if you stumble across this, kindly help me retweet for the business i co-run is one of my main source of financial support while i study here.

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