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You don’t know me. You know the character my online presence has made to represent me. And I like it that way. Thoughts, feelings, and opinions wise, the character and I are the same. Personality and identity wise, we are different. Anonymity is my confidence and will remain true
This character gives me the outlet I need for anything I want to put out there without bias or other knowledge about me. It strikes the perfect balance between personal and non-personal where without anonymity it’s impossible to find the middle ground that I so greatly enjoy.
I should not concern you in any way, that does not mean that I lack value. Instead, it means how in the grand scheme of things, I will end up just being another suppressed/forgotten memory in the story we call our lives. That way, my thoughts are gone from stress, but still lost.
I first started my time online wanting to be a big name YouTuber whose opinions were untouchable, could influence those who couldn’t decide, and whose name would be known around the globe. But I later found value in the niches of anonymity and the joy being a private person.
Being an introvert isn’t about being shy. It is instead, about not wanting to be a concern to other people because we don’t want to be much of a burden and face-to-face interaction would inadvertently place an obligation on someone else to be concerned about the person in a shell
We fear rejection in any situation, where in most of them that fear is greater than the best possible result. Which leaves one lingering question, why bother? Those two words have become much stronger over time as I’ve faced with rejection. “Is it worth it?” Always lingers.
Trying to reach the point where irl you will get me to comfortably open up to you is not worth your time. It’s an exhaustive effort, and doing it at a bad point will only make everything worse. And because of that, an anonymous outlet is the best place for me to find solitude.
I feel comfort in knowing that I am the only one who truly knows me. Do not concern yourself about me based on this thread alone. I am in a stable place mentally and just wanted to say this. Thank you for listening.
