wish i had the Gender to enjoy having long hair but rn its actually kind of excruciating. i want to shave it off and i want my parents to know its because i WANT it short even if (especially if) they want it long

me in may, 2 months into quarantine: haha cant wait to join the quarantine cuts club! i wonder what wacky stuff i'll do to my hair :)
me rn: if i so much as THINK about cutting my hair my parents will psychically view my thoughts and hold me down until my hair is twice as long

i wish i could say the second half is exaggeration but being around my parents for 7 months without chances to, like, leave their sight for more than an hour or two has taken a toll on my mental health. i can feel my brain regress to 2014 in realtime and thats not a joke

i think this thread is a sign i should probably go to bed. obsessively ruminating about myself spiralling is also a "my 2014 brain" thing. time is a flat circle and the circle of stupidity is complete