Monday, September 21, 2020 at 9pm: I got in the bed and said aloud (I live alone) “how the hell am I going to keep doing this?” Not even sure what “this” means at this point. Whatever it is—I’m over it.

I’m fine (2020 fine). Like many of you the days get longer and shorter and heavier and more exhausting and sometimes I have to just say...this is HARD. All of it.

The uncertainty. The sadness. The loneliness. It’s all a lot. I deeply believe everything happens for a reason. We learn, grow and stretch from all the things happening around us if attention we pay. I accept all of that and yet...