maybe at the end of all of this I’ll write a really good self help book about how to process and let go of the guilt that comes with feeling like inexplicable trauma falls upon everyone around you

maybe not

if you want me to cry on your podcast this is a great week to book me

you try to make sense of everything bad that’s happened to everyone you’ve loved over the last decade and walk away feeling like the world is a senseless and stupid and cruel place and all you can do is survive in it to the best of your ability, which sucks bc it’s survival mode

on a related note i lifted weights to the song “now only” by mount eerie today and “chinese satellite” by @phoebe_bridgers and then this thread happened between sets