Also had an uncomfortable conversation with mom trying to explain to her that no, having my Extremely Clinically Depressed brother love with HER so he can go to school without worrying about rent would actually be horrible for him because she’s the cause of his PTSD?

Only without those words.

But like. Hey mom. Maybe it’s not going to help a depressed person to get out of the hole if they’re living with someone who nitpicks everything and thinks they’re only depressed because they’re lazy and Don’t Do Things.

Instead of, y’know. Not doing things Because Depressed.

Yes, I know he actually needs to Start Doing Things. I know he can be Like That. I assure you, you WILL NOT HELP.

Like...you’re a big part of why he dropped out of college to begin with?

Oh, what’s that? You’re complaining that he has no drive?

That could be because everything he was ever interested in doing you told him was Bad.

Is he sad and depressed all the time? Yeah. Because you effed him up.

“I just feel like I’m watching things go wrong and I just want to grab the rudder and steer him in a better direction.”

Oh do you? Do you, mom?

BECAUSE THAT WAS HOW I FELT WATCHING YOU RAISING MY SIBLINGS. And any time I ever said anything I got “I’M the mother!”

Yeah good job

...anyway, I feel like crap tonight and kind of wish I could just watch Lovecraft Country and Arsenic and Old Lace with Ster. That’s greedy, I know.

I’m just gonna lie in bed and wish fanfics would update.

OH WAIT I FORGOT HOW I GOT ON THIS THREAD.

Because mom was saying something about how she couldn’t see how someone could work, pay rent, and go to school and I was like...YEAH MOM. YALL KINDA EFFED THAT UP TOO.

It’s really hard. People manage, but barely.

“I don’t know how different it is? I know I did it...”

YEAH, ITS DIFFERENT MOM. LANDLORDS ARE GREEDY AND REPUBLICANS GUTTED COLLEGES AND YALL KEPT MINIMUM WAGE TF DOWN.

WHAT DID YOU THINK WOILD HAPPEN?