That was Jesus his entire time on earth. Pretty sure he dreaded dying LONG before that incident where he had a breakdown and his sweat was like blood. https://twitter.com/philz_adamz/status/1307713464278962179

Even as a boy of, maybe 8, Jesus knew he was going to be brutally beaten and dragged across the roads and then nailed to a cross. Nevertheless he woke up everyday to do what he had to do. Bro.

A whole life in existential dread.

That’s why, despite being god, he still had a mini-panic attack. Ten percent of a mental breakdown. All his life led up to that moment and even that wasn’t enough mental preparation.

Yet, foxes have holes, birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to rest his head.

Still he must awaken, gather his chosen ones and say “I did not come to be served by you all, but to give my life for the many.”

Keep it moving.

Imagine sitting everyday at the table, knowing one of these men you hand-picked as your faves was going to betray you, hand you over to killers, and that all your faithfuls would abandon you.

Yet you gotta preach and motivate and try to extract virtue out of terrible people.