I've been on a retrospective kick lately. Assessing my life thus far.
Been feeling in the dumps lately and wondering if I'll ever find that elusive "life purpose". Is it ever too late to find it?
Brace yourselves, boys & girls. Long thread incoming

Been feeling in the dumps lately and wondering if I'll ever find that elusive "life purpose". Is it ever too late to find it?

Brace yourselves, boys & girls. Long thread incoming



The stats: 43 year old divorced male with a son. Terrible childhood growing up, no social skills to speak of, with ample emotional baggage! Battled depression with a litany of social and behavioral deficiencies. Still fighting these battles now.
Had a schizophrenic mother, a selfish father who on the rare occasion would step up (begrudgingly) to be a "dad". Have a younger brother by 2 years who unfortunately has inherited my mother's sickness. We're not close.
Mom has since passed and dad is around but sick.
Mom has since passed and dad is around but sick.
Alzheimer's with a touch of dementia. How fitting for him? One could almost say it's "poetic justice". He's remarried years ago. My stepmother? Let's just say we coexist. Barely. Very judgemental and passive aggressive. Living with these two right now.
Composing all this at work. I'll eventually add more to this thread as the mood, memories, and time constraints allow me to do so. Consider this entry as a work in progress. 

Thanks for reading.


Thanks for reading.