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Wrote down some reasons to live on my whiteboard to remind myself that they do exist then erased it because I don& #39;t want Qs, comments or judgements and I also felt embarrassed because neither of them are to do with humans
I don& #39;t want to be fucking fixed or fucking judged I just want to be fucking listened to and right now a knife and a bathtub sound more appealing than waking up thinking "oh fuck I have to do this all over again"
IDK precisely how long I& #39;ve been feeling like this but it suddenly hit me really hard on Saturday and hasn& #39;t left so maybe it& #39;s been there for a while but needed to snap at some point
And mental health services in this country are fucked and I don& #39;t want to talk about this shit out loud due to, well, the reasons listed in the first tweet so I don& #39;t feel like I can ring anyone
IDK what to do and I hate it so much
