Idk what to do... all I ever do is just fantasize about what I want life to be like, and it feels like it won’t happen. There is so much in my life and it’s so overwhelming and confusing and all I wanna do is this idea in my head but idk how to get there and what to do.

There is all this negativity in my life and life in general and I don’t even feel like myself or that I can even be myself around anyone. People always try to give advise or help but it never works, and stuff people say doesn’t alway apply to me and my feeling, and experiences.

I feel so much like that meme where squidward is looking at spongebob and patrick out of the window

I have to get a job sometime soon idk when and I keep trying to think of ideas of where and nothing feels right. I don’t want to work somewhere just to be working, I want something decently enjoyable. I want something new and exciting, but nothing seems to fit the mold.

And it I know probably 1 or 2 people are going to like every post in this thread and then move on or something like that.

My sleep is kinda sucked too. I have been falling asleep later than usual for the past few days, and I do always have my 4am wake up for like 5 minutes session, and then in the morning I wake up and can’t keep my eyes open and I fall back asleep again on repeat.

Anyway can’t wait to wake up at 4am to probably 2 people liking this thread, a possible reply or two and a dm, you know who you are, and I know you are reading this right now... if you just read that, reply to this with a random gif of a chicken and a caption with the letter P.

Nevermind I didn’t fall asleep fast enough....