real nervous bc i just found out that 1. i can only get accepted into this subject at uni if i am one of the 20 best on the course (that has more than 100 people) and 2. even with good grades you may not get accepted into the subjects you want

this doesn't seem very bad but considering i came to biology to study genetics, diseases and be on labs and i have to choose two subjects out of 5 where 4 are animal, plant and field biology related... i suck at those topics and i have to do one of them bc i need to choose 2 +

subjects and only one is lab related. the problem is even bigger bc the one subject where they only accept the top 20 best is the one i chose out of those bad 4 bc it was the only one with a good teacher. he taught me some of my favorite subjects last year and as such it would +

be a way to make a bad topic for me a bit easier to learn and understand. if i don't get accepted i will have to study some field or animal shit and i have so much trouble understanding and liking those. and imagine if even the lab subject gets filled out and i can't do it

i have been so anxious it's the second night in a row i woke up crying from a nightmare which is usually a sign of stress in me. and now i found out these two news facts and i'm even more stressed. ALSO i have to call the uni to get information on scholarships since my perfect +

average from high school only got me a one year scholarship and now i'm left with having to pay it all. i don't want my parents to have to do that so the scholarship would really help but i doubt i'll get it

1st world problems af i'm sorry for this thread and complaints