I’ve resigned myself to the fact that Trump is gonna win. If I die, I die

The part that fucks me up is all the people that have died already and the ones that will die first, way before I’m in immediate danger. But I’m mentally preparing myself for life under a dictator

Best I think we can hope for at this point is something like Putin’s Russia, which is what Putin wanted anyway.

I also do not think that we will be able to do anything about the climate crisis, and that we’re just gonna go extinct fairly soon

And by fairly soon, I obviously mean in the context of the life of the Earth and human history, not next year

I don’t know how to categorize my feelings. I’m not numb, because I’m mourning. I’m not detached, because I’m still invested in writing and helping communities when I can. But I’ve just, accepted that we are fucked and that nothing will change

I get that a lot of people see this as a privileged position and it is, in a lot of ways. But mostly, I don’t think I want to spend the rest of my life screaming while no one listens. I want to spend time with the people I love, enjoy the beauty of this Earth before

So much of it dies. I want to help people have the best lives they can, but I no longer think that we can save humanity. I think white people have doomed us all

Short of a complete global revolution, I don’t see what can be done. And even that, the death and the chaos that would come with that. They might kill us all before they let us tear down their systems

Anyway, hold your loved ones close. Spend time with them. Immigrate if it makes sense. Move inland or mainland if you can/want to. Take in the beauty of being human, the pain. Idk. It’s not giving up, for me. It’s just recognizing that these forces are a bit too much