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Was thinking this morning about how I ran a poll here & on DA to see if any of my followers had a crush on me as a joke & at least three people from there & here said "Yes". And this was excluding the usual suspects who I KNOW do.
But my insecurities are enough that while I did have the initial, "Oh wow, cool!" reaction my immediate follow up was, "But why though?"
Seriously even with plenty of evidence to the contrary there& #39;s still that part of me that can& #39;t accept people find me attractive.
Seriously even with plenty of evidence to the contrary there& #39;s still that part of me that can& #39;t accept people find me attractive.
Especially if it& #39;s someone who doesn& #39;t know me that well. I& #39;ve accepted I& #39;m charming enough that if someone talks to me they can, and have on three occasions, develop a crush and/or romantic feelings for me.
But it still feels weird to me that someone could see a pic of me on here & find me physically attractive.
Especially since, if I& #39;m being totally honest, I feel like that& #39;s why I don& #39;t have a local relationship. Cause I just can& #39;t see someone here seeing me & finding me attractive enough to want to ask me out.
Like I get why people find EG Blackbird attractive cause he has definitely developed in to the anime pretty boy trope but me? Myself? I& #39;m still stuck on the idea I& #39;m the ugly troll most people in high school called me.
I& #39;m starting to move past that but...I still stumble
I& #39;m starting to move past that but...I still stumble
Hence this whole thread here.
Plus, I am honestly if the people who said they have a crush on me is based just on my appearance or also my personality. That part I could get.
Just be nice to be able to talk to one of them about it.
Plus, I am honestly if the people who said they have a crush on me is based just on my appearance or also my personality. That part I could get.
Just be nice to be able to talk to one of them about it.
But if any of those people are reading this thread, I am very flattered and thank you.
