tw// anxiety

Kapag nakakakita talaga ako ng clips na halatang masaya na masaya talaga si Tay, parang naiiyak talaga ako. Before this stan twt acc, hindi ko na halos mahawakan ang phone ko kasi hindi ko mapigilan hindi tignan yung main accounts ko na nagca-cause ng +

pag-ooverthink ko, mabilis and bothering na heartbeat, at feeling ko lahat ng negative na nakikita ko sa tl ko ay tungkol sa akin. Although aaminin ko na 2gether naman talaga nag-introduce ng bl series sa akin, si Tay at New talaga yung dahilan bakit nagstay ako +

there's just something in them na biglang naging sobrang invested ako sa friendship nila to the point na sila nalang yung nagiging dahilan ng iyak ko (grrr kasi naman nababasa ko noon sira na friendship nila blabla) but then phase lang to, for some reasons hindi ko kayang umalis

habang tinitignan ko si tay noon, sabi ko i want this kind of guy for me pero narealize ko din na hindi ko deserve yung ganong type of person. then i started working on myself. I started working out, started eating healthy, started learning thai, started thinking positively

then si New, sunod sunod issues nya noon, I was so damn disappointed with him but i was waiting for his apology and when he did i was so damn relieved pero masakit pa rin so i was kinda thankful he wasn't that active sa soc med.

until unti-unti, i started seeing New's smiles again and it was enough to pull me back. I realized how strong he is kasi meron mga hindi pa rin naniniwala sa kanya and i didn't want to be one who hated him because he's literally one of those who help me start a new.

i don't know why i made this thread, im not going anywhere but i just had the urge to do so because i really can't deny it to myself anymore that TayNew's a part of me now, and even though I haven't met them in person, they've made a huge impact on me.

I'm sorry if this thread bothers anyone, it wasn't my intention. I was just so happy when I saw a clip of Tay today