give me ben who is redeemed but still prone to outbursts and fits of anger that he has trouble controlling. give me ben whose hand clenches like he wants nothing more than to pull out his lightsaber every time snoke is mentioned. give me ben who is still a bit broken, but healing
similarly
give me rey who doesnât quite understand why she canât just wack people upside the head with her staff when they disagree with her. rey who still has nights where she clutches her blanket and screams for her parents to come back. rey who still has trouble believingâ


that ben is with her for good, that someone finally came back for her. rey who isnât quite used to having friends and likes to hide among the resistanceâs ships whenever the constant noise and motion around her get to be too much in comparison with the relative stillness of jakku
give me rose who sometimes jolts awake in the middle of the night bc of a memory of her parents and expects paige to be there to talk to about it. when she remembers that sheâs not, she curls her fingers over her medallion and finally allows herself to cry over all sheâs lost.
give me finn who still sometimes adheres to standard fo protocol before remembering that he doesnât have to follow what they told him to believe anymore. finn who is still unsure what his place is in the resistance, unsure of exactly how one person like him can make a differenceâ
but still willing to try, bc the resistance has given him a family and friends, and there are murmurs among the higher ups that stormtrooper extraction programs will be put in place when they have the resources. finn coming to realize the great amount of influence he truly has.
poe who is sometimes buried by the enormity of the loss heâs faced over the course of the war. poe who tries to justify it to himself- to hold onto hope, really- by saying itâs all for the future of the galaxy. poe who has his own doubts and sometimes lies awake at nightâ
wondering if the sacrifices of so many of the people heâs known over the years will all be in vain. poe who sometimes gets barely an hour of sleep but wakes up the next day as charismatic as ever bc he needs to keep up the morale of those around him if theyâre to stand a chance.
gonna add on to ben bc i have more to say: ben who has nightmares of the bridge on starkiller. sometimes the person standing with him isnât han. sometimes itâs his mother, sometimes itâs rey. she knows every time that particular dream occurs even without him having to tell her.
and when it does, she knows that all he really wants to do is be held. so she draws him close to her and tries to emit some peace for the both of them. often she wishes she could meet ben as a child and apologize for everything the force would put him through the next few years.
in conclusion give me messy, beautiful, cathartic arcs for the main sequel trilogy characters or give me death