i need to do something... outside of school i actively take part in nothing. dont even do outside activities because the clubs were cautious of my behavior with the new covid guidelines. i suppose i made the choice to leave but... i dont know. was unfair me being there tbh

i enjoyed it, but i was a ranting asshole who hated authority and made it so obvious by going to lengths like not doing anything for a session because one person screamed a little too loud and my anxiety was going too far out of my own handling.

last year was absolutely my best. i did everything i could because i wanted to for once. i wanted to be healthy and cared for once. and the authority had died down significantly. felt confident in small ways, none that i would admit.

there isnt a point to this thread, i just talk too much.

should work on not talking too, probably lol