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— gods of jade & shadow by silvia moreno-garcia

when a friend presses a book into ur chest & says, “read this mortal/immortal slow burn romance w/ the god of death that’s set in the underworld of Jazz-age Mexico & inspired by Mayan folklore” YOU JUST DO IT

the literal god of death materializing in front of Casiopea and ordering her to go on a trip with him and her being like “a TRIP? ugh do I really have to go” is the most introverted-person reply i’ve ever seen

Hun-Kamé explaining Casiopea
that Casiopea should
do his bidding bc he
rescued her also he’s
the literal god of
death

han-kamé: I rescued you

casiopea: “i ReScUeD yOu”

this one is about Hun-Kamé https://twitter.com/proyearner/status/1308101289499332610

hun-kamé to himself: quick say something nice and flirty

hun-kamé to casiopea: you are a funny thing it’s like having a playful monkey

hun-kamé to himself: nailed it

ah yes, that stage of any we-don’t-vibe-to-maybe-lovers trope where one of them tries to be nice or even flirty but instead it comes out like this

“I dreamed about you.”

- hun-kamé, the god of death who never dreams, to casiopea

the..... yearning..... in this book......

he brushed her lips.... with his fingers..... to magically heal the cuts there........... just kiss please.... i am in so much pain

this moment between hun-kamé and casiopea obliterated me...... please I just want them to be safe and happy together but it seems more unlikely with every page and I am so scared https://twitter.com/proyearner/status/1308863574526357509

oh. oh no. not the “villain finds out they’re longing for each other and promptly plans to take advantage of that” trope.......... fuck

i can’t remember the last time I read a story with this much unceasing onslaught of sharp, agonizing yearning...... i am going to COMBUST

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i am fucking DISTRAUGHT

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the sexual tension between hun-kamé and shedding his godhood to live as a mortal with the object of his desire whom he asks for a new name

I really can’t handle the sheer power and breadth of YEARNING in this book..... I am not strong enough.....

the author just HAD to sprinkle in a little “you and me against the world” as if the yearning isn’t AGONIZING enough

I can’t stop seeing this scene in my mind’s eye, and there are no words to put around the sheer ache lancing through my heart

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i am but a shell of my former self.... i will never recover from this