Thread by @vicw0nder, When I was a little boy, i loved my skin, it was [...]

When I was a little boy, i loved my skin, it was light. I loved my lips, it was pink. But I hated my face. God, I hated how ugly I looked.

I have a prominent forehead and my head is generally big. Also, the space between my nose and upper lip is naturally swollen. Whenever —

I looked in the mirror, I saw this ugly child. A lot of adults then would tell me that I was cute, would pinch my cheeks, but I never bought it because I learned early that adults actually lie a lot.

Also, I saw people in my age groups, boys who I knew were really fine —

and I noticed this because I& #39;m gay (even though I didn& #39;t realize then) and because unconsciously, I& #39;d been taught by the society what acceptable beauty is.

I grew up with the consciousness that I& #39;m ugly. First and foremost, my light skin was lost when the sun of the —

North dealt with me. If you& #39;ve ever lived in the northern part of Nigeria, you& #39;ll know they have extreme weather conditions. I became darker. My forehead grew and so did the swollen part between my nose and upper lip.

During this pandemic-induced lockdown, I hated what I saw in the mirror. I bought a mirror in my room and each time I go there, I& #39;ll try to style my hair (which is natural and short, so imagine my frustrations) or do something to my face. Just anything that would make me —

look and feel better. But I wasn& #39;t able to leave my room with any of those modifications because of obvious reasons: my family& #39;s homophobia.

But I thought, if I couldn& #39;t change my face, I could at least change my body (read abs) which I wasn& #39;t also proud of and so I started —

working out to flatten my pot belly and tighten my abs. I was successful.

After coming out to my family a few days ago and leaving home, it took me 24 hours to hit the salon and braid my hair. I needed to see what my face would look like.

When I look in the mirror now and see myself, I& #39;m wild with excitement. I go, "fuck, I& #39;m hot!"

And I& #39;m not apologetic about it!

I know that in the queer community, there& #39;s a lot of emphasis on body and looks and I know this can be depressing and negative. Yes, I think the pressure to look "hot" should stop but I also think that if you feel you don& #39;t, and you get a new body through any method, —

then you deserve that happiness. You deserve that satisfaction.

If you are very comfortable with how you look currently but it& #39;s not the "acceptable beauty standard" fuck them! You are beautiful.

If you feel you are ugly and get a new body or face, naturally or artificially, —

own that shit!

Everyone has a different path and journey and like I said earlier, you deserve happiness!!!!

You deserve to look and feel good. It& #39;s all love from my corner

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