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Well, here's the actual honest reason, all laid out in one brief thread, and if you believe I'm lying then nothing I can say will change your mind, and I'll miss seeing you on the TL if you decide to block me (1/7) https://twitter.com/JeremyMcLellan/status/1306429066489331712?s=20
I get very awkward when I'm complimented, because I have shit self-esteem thanks to my own childhood trauma. You and I shared a couple of brief conversations about PTSD on main last year, before the world went crazy.
So when @areyousurebruv called me chill or whatever... (2/7)
So when @areyousurebruv called me chill or whatever... (2/7)
...I reacted with my usual self-deprecation, and in this case reached for an example close at hand: A person on Twitter who I don't believe is an honest or good person, who when I disagree with I react to with insults and contempt because I am a weak and sinning man. (3/7)
@julmele is absolutely right: I was deflecting Bruv's compliment by pointing out a counterexample of unchill behavior on my part.
I guess I assumed you remembered the fact that we'd had conversations about trauma before, which is silly because I'm nobody around here...(4/7)
I guess I assumed you remembered the fact that we'd had conversations about trauma before, which is silly because I'm nobody around here...(4/7)
...but that is indeed why I mentioned it: Because I think you're a good and courageous person for being willing to have those conversations. And because I think that, I wanted to calmly explain why people were disagreeing with you, while making it clear...(5/7)
...that I had no interest in mockingly QTing you, or just insulting you as though you were some trollish rag's editor not worth engaging. I didn't think we were friends, but I thought you at least recognized me as an admirer. Which was presumptuous of me...(6/7)
...and I apologize for completely fucking that up and making you feel unsafe or attacked. I can only promise that this wasn't at all my intention and hope that you'll believe me.
Either way, God bless you, have a good evening, and I hope tomorrow is better for both of us. (7/7)
Either way, God bless you, have a good evening, and I hope tomorrow is better for both of us. (7/7)
