TRIGGER WARNING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS/SELF HARM
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Ok but like can my mom not lose her mind for one second? She asks me if I'm in a bad mood and once I ignore her all she does is scream and then threatens to slap me. Look here I'm on the edge of wanting to kill

Myself so Don't cry at my funeral when I do it because we all know it's gonna be yours and dad's fault for completely ignoring my other Suicide attempt which was not very long ago and blaming it on a little argument when you told the doctor Just say you're homophobic and

Transphobic so just leave. All you do is yell at me, call my triggers bs, deadname me (I don't even bother telling them my actual name they'll start being transphobic) complain that I never give you respect and the list goes on and on and on. My mom started whining today

Cause no one in this house gives her "respect" I do that on purpose too I don't say yes ma'am to her because that's how we respect people in my house but since she wants to act like I'm straight all the time and act like I'm perfectly mentally unstable then I give her

No respect. They just don't care anymore and I swear if I see anyone say they "care" I'm just gonna end up blocking you because all they've done was give me childhood trauma from all the gaslighting and hitting me and telling at me when I was little and I thought that was normal

for parents to hit you and scream at you for doing something wrong I didn't know it was abuse I didn't know I would develop triggers from that when I got older I didn't even realize I was being abused until last year. The other day my parents were cutting steaks and stuff

And I just laughed because they were cutting with the knives I used to self harm and they never even notice or even bother to check they're faded now anyways also the kitchen knife I used really isn't meant for cutting it's meant for chopping and steak stuff I like steak

I like raw steak it's good B) anyways they also thought the last time I self harmed was in last August and uh I've been self harming ever since so uh ejrjdjdbdpe also I was gonna be in inpatient but I was like lol no that's stupid and I do regret it I should've been in the ward

Longer than half a month or two because I'm still at high risk except my Depression is way better but my mood swings is like hey let's self harm today or hey let's commit suicide B) also the suicide hotlines don't work either so if you comment that I'll block you too

I've tried the Suicide hotline four times and still no answer so whoops.

K end of thread don't give me pity I hate that