I ended up sleeping at 4:30 and woke up from a nightmare at 5 and then something outside made a noise and woke me up at 6 and then my body just decided 9 was the latest it’d sleep in til

mad at myself bc I got upset about something so stupid that I never resolve my feelings towards and just get worked up every time https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😫" title="Müdes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Müdes Gesicht"> was it worth it definitely not !!

gonna. try to move onhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="➰" title="Geringelte Schleife" aria-label="Emoji: Geringelte Schleife"> I jst hate how I get like this. there’s some things that upset me that even my close friends say, and I don’t like. blame them or expect them not to but then I’m both mad/upset And spiralling over how I should just isolate and not be around people ever

like it’s really dumb and a subject that comes up on here frequently so I should really have a better grip on it. more than it happening I just get upset with myself bc some things remind me why I found it easier to just be stupid and weird by myself https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🌀" title="Zyklon" aria-label="Emoji: Zyklon">

rr a better way to phrase that is it’s like. hmm one of those ‘anyone who doesn’t feel this way is stupid and wrong and deserves to be upset’ kinda things and so many people including close friends don’t know it upsets me(/are entitled to still say it) so I want to evaporate

u know sometimes you don’t even want to defend yourself you just wish you were a worm so life was simpler