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It really hurts ang mag-aral ng ganito (JPIAN ver) #JPIANSItReallyHurtsMoments

a thread;

accountancy, a very demanding course. demanding sa time, effort, sometimes even money (hello books and friction pen). during my first year hanggang second year, almost everyday ko sigurong sinasabi na magshishift na ako, na ayoko na.

demanding sa time, minsan halos wala ng tulog but the hardest part is when you have to choose between spending time for a family celebration or studying and when you choose the latter, not only do you miss the fun, you also miss a chance to be with the people that matter the most

demanding sa effort. of course for you to succeed, kailangan mo mag-effort. pero grabe naman 'tong accounting. nag-effort naman ako pero bakit always bagsak? mapapaisip ka na lang, anong kulang? para sayo ba talaga ito?

demanding sa pera. im not even kidding. as someone who finds it hard to study using my phone as reference, of course i need to buy books—lots of books. it's all good, it will help me rin naman to pass. but still, imagine the food i can buy with all those money

tapos ngayon naman naging online/modular ang setup. it's good sana kasi nasa bahay lang, but i think i'm not even learning. the thing is, the topics are already hard to understand, and i am way too distracted with everything in the house that sometimes i have no will to study.

oh did i mention, distraction? #TitangIna

not to mention the backpain. yun lang ata ang nakukuha ko sa online class na ito :)

there are times na buong araw ka ng nag-aaral, wala ka ng tulog but to no avail, you fail. mapapaisip ka na lang ganon na ba talaga ako kabobo? then you start comparing yourself with others, bakit kaya nila tapos ako hindi? the anxiety comes rushing in and all you can do is cry

do i even have to explain why this hurts

as a JPIAN, i think i have more failed tests than those that i actually passed. i tried my best, i drank lots of coffee so i could stay up late pero hanggang doon lang talaga ang kaya ko

but of course, kahit ang scores, may glow up naman haha. its okay if you fail because failure is a part of learning. look at me i failed so many tests and almost gave up the 1st and 2nd year but i'm still here and i'm still willing to learn

sabi nga ni ate nicole, the program we're in is toxic and it will get more toxic as sems pass by so enjoy the things you actually want to do, like blasting your favorite songs and watching your favorite movies.

although, sometimes hindi pa rin maiwasan yung mapagod at sabihing ayaw mo na. that's okay. we can rest, but don't give up, if it's for your dream <3

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