Anyone else feel like the pandemic is making them re-evaluate just about everything in their life? It’s like, we are undergoing a situation we never predicted that has really no end in sight and it seems foolish to think that previous years’ choices have a chance of validity now.

A big thing I’m struggling with is locale. Part of moving to Austin was my son’s dad being able to fly out here monthly to see him. Now Henry hasn’t seen his dad for 6+ months. It was never supposed to be that way. I feel responsible for letting them have a closer relationship.

I don’t want to do this for another year or longer. I don’t want to have to put our family at risk just to let the two of them spend time together. I miss San Diego but life there would be harder in many ways (easier in others).

And while I love lots of parts of Austin, it’s hard to carefully consider the good parts when it’s been so long since we’ve enjoyed a normal life here. Frame of mind is a weird thing right now.

Right now I’m feeling the pull of SD. It feels inevitable anyway, but maybe this feeling will pass.