sexual assault //
(not saying i’ve been sexually assaulted as such, just tagging this as that because it could trigger people who have)

realising that a large amount of my sexual experiences weren’t consensual / were something i felt pressured into is ... a lot to process

i really think the line between “normal sexual experience” and “i can’t talk about this without tearing up” is much much thinner than i imagined it to be growing up. i’m sure multiple people who had me feeling like i had to “go along with it” to please them regardless of my own +

pain, discomfort or distress didn’t even realise that i WAS uncomfortable with it. rape culture persists, in part, due to to women being taught to value their partner’s needs and wants over their own. but this is NOT our fault. if we stayed quiet it’s bc we learned to do so

(idk if this thread is coherent i’m just. thinking aloud. also it obviously isn’t just women who get pressured into sexual acts they aren’t comfortable with i’m just talking based on personal experience and stuff uno)